August 17, 2024 - Inability to ask and receive

 

Two days ago, my husband and I were sitting on the bench behind the house and talking when our puppy Tina approached us, wagging her tail, she leaned her head towards his hand waiting to be petted. I watched with envy as he petted her and I didn't get anything. Yes, I know, how stupid, but that's exactly how I felt. And I realized again that I had to do something about my inability to ask. I can't ask for fear of being judged as weak, stupid, incompetent and unable to handle myself. Another trouble from my troubled childhood when I was "training" myself intensely to be a boy because that's what was wanted of me. Boys deserve it, boys bring luck to the house, boys are smart, capable and so on... and I thought sadly that a dog is more natural and capable than me to ask for and receive what it wants. I just sit and suffer in silence and I'm "proud" that I was raised to be strong and to always manage on my own. Shit! a French girl would say in my place...I'm still ashamed to ask and I should do something.

I've worked on these programs here before, but on a superficial level and obviously it was time to resume them.

I started to draw many more limitations related to the inability to ask and receive and here are the ones I came up with:

I know how to ask no

I know what to ask no

I know what it feels like and how it feels to ask no

I allow myself to ask no

Asking means being weak

Asking means you can't handle it

Asking means you are capable

Asking means you are no good at anything

Asking means you don't deserve it

If I ask, I'm incapable

If I ask, I'm a nobody

If I ask, I'm a jerk

If I ask, I'm incompetent

If I ask, I can handle it no

If I ask, I get no

If I ask, I get punished

Even if I ask, I still don't get anything

Even if I ask, no one notices me anyway

My requests have value no

My requests are heard no

My requests are listened no

My requests matter no

My wishes are listened no

My wishes matter no

My wishes have value no

Nobody cares about my requests and wishes

I matter no

My wishes matter no

My requests matter no

It matters what I ask for no

Someone listens to my requests no

Someone listens to my wishes no

Someone hears my requests no

Someone hears my wishes no

Someone fulfills my requests no

Someone fulfills my wishes no

The Creator listens to my requests and wishes no

The Creator hears my requests and wishes no

The Creator fulfills my requests and wishes no no

My requests and my wishes are in vain

My requests and my wishes are worthless

My requests and my wishes are useless

My requests and my wishes are echoless

My requests and my wishes are pointless

My requests and my wishes are unattainable

I know I am allowed to ask no

When I ask, something bad happens

If I ask, I always have to give something in return

If I ask, I always have to pay

If I ask, I always have to compensate

I am allowed to ask no

I am allowed to ask no

I have to ask permission to ask for something

I must be allowed to ask

I must ask permission to ask

If I ask, I will be strangled

If I ask, I will suffer

If I ask, I will receive a punishment

Dad tells me if I'm allowed to ask

Dad tells me if I'm allowed to receive

I can receive no

I allow myself to receive no

I know how to receive no

I am allowed to receive No

I know I can receive no

I have permission to receive no

Only my parents can allow me to receive

I can only receive if mom or dad gives me permission

If I receive, I will be punished

If I receive, I will get beaten

If I receive, I will suffer

If I receive, I will feel sorry

I am allowed to receive from strangers no

All strangers are dangerous

All strangers can hurt you

Strangers trick you

Strangers give you something to hurt you

You can take from strangers no

You can receive from strangers no

I can receive from strangers no

I am in danger if I receive from strangers

I can receive anything no

I must avoid receiving

I am safe if I receive no

I must avoid receiving

Receiving is dangerous

You can find the steps of a Theta meditation here (before listening to the recording it is necessary to enter the Theta state, the meditation is listened to with your eyes closed and the program changes are confirmed by "yes/accepting".

August 16, 2024 - Vata dosha balancing (Ayurveda)

 

I have written about Ayurveda and my new passion for it here. In that article, I also proposed a meditation to balance Pitta dosha, meaning the fire constitution. That is what I felt I had to start with in balancing my physical and mental health. In the meantime, I discovered that Vata dosha is not okay either (I have a Pitta constitution in the foreground and then Vata a short distance after). If you want to find out what your typology is, here is a good test, it will give the result immediately.

First of all, let me tell you a little about Vata dosha.

As I said in the other article, people fall into one or more of these constitutions identified in Ayurveda: pitta (the fire and water principle, with 80% fire), vata (air and ether/space) and kapha (earth 40% and water 60%). We are born with one or more of them, during our lives they can change, they give us strength but they can also bring us into imbalance if we don't keep them in check. What do I mean? Let's give an example with Vata while we're still talking about this. People with a Vata constitution are very intelligent, creative, adaptable, social, light as air, but they can end up with their heads in the clouds, dizzy, airy, in their own world, antisocial, unstable when they are out of balance. They also have dry hair, dry skin, constant constipation, poor digestion - these are all physical signs of the imbalance of a person with a Vata constitution.

How can you get out of balance? Well, the air is light, cold and dry. Consuming light, cold and dry foods. Too much ice cream is not good for a vata person. A hot soup is, however. A lot of cold and dry food is not good, salami with bread all day long, definitely not, a cream soup in which I added a good oil, definitely yes. Ayurveda applies the principle of balancing with the help of opposites. We eat warm, moist and oily if we are too dry, cold and light. You understand. At the same time, a cold environment is bad for a vata person, a warm environment is not. Or the lack of a routine in life, of an organization, of a clear program can make an "airy vata" become even more "airy", more "scattered", more "with his head in the clouds". We balance the air with fire and earth attributes, with attributes that warm and give the state of grounding, of security, of being "with my feet on the ground".

How did I think of this meditation that I first applied to myself? I took all the unbalanced attributes of Vata, asked the Creator to extract and cancel them and replace them with their balanced version, including on the physical side.

- I eliminated fatigue and replaced it with rest, peace and tranquility;

- I eliminated the lack of adaptability, attachment to routine and replaced it with adaptability and desire for newness;

- I eliminated the lack of sociability and replaced it with the desire to communicate and socialize;

- I eliminated the lack of enthusiasm and replaced it with enthusiasm and joy;

- I eliminated the lack of creativity and replaced it with creativity, imagination, innovation;

- I eliminated the inability to listen to my intuition and replaced it with the ability to always understand and listen to my intuition;

- I replaced the unbalanced physical attributes - dry hair and skin, constipation, poor digestion, dryness in the body;

- I replaced fears and anxiety with courage, peace, calm, peace of mind, attention, mental clarity;

- I took instability and replaced it with its opposite.

The steps of a Theta meditation can be found here (before listening to the recording, it is necessary to enter the Theta state, the meditation is listened to with your eyes closed and the program changes are confirmed by "yes/accept". Complete the meditation below. At the end, you say. Thank you, it is fulfilled, show me.

What are my results?

I have been "attacking" vata dosha from several sides for several days - I drink vata balancing tea from Everest daily, I eat more hydrating oils because I saw that although I drank a lot of water daily, I was not hydrated, I use more face creams and hair oils, I drink hot drinks tea/soup (but not in excess so as not to upset pitta dosha, i.e. the fire principle). I feel much better, more balanced and the big victory: 2 stools a day, daily, instead of one dry one every 3-4 days. Yes, a little gross, but it is part of the vata imbalances, I had to tell you about it him.

All the best,

Geo

August 13, 2024 - May Fire Burn the Wealthy

 

I have been working on financial abundance and money for years. If you search here on this blog you will find hundreds of programs that I have released. I am not talking about the Code of Emotions, affirmations, gratitude programs. And yet my financial level is at a pitiful level. When it goes up, when it goes down again and stays there. Today I decided to enter the Theta state and ask the creator what is wrong with me, why this state never ends. I have taken courses after courses, I have worked on myself, on the people, programs of all kinds, including those inspired by movies. What else can I do? And as I sat like this with my eyes closed, I began to see myself as the ashes came off my arms, my body in general, and the following program came to my mind: "If I earned the money I want, I would burn in hell". So, then! Again this religion and the fear instilled in childhood at church. We've worked "The rich don't enter paradise" here, but not the other way around. Why not hell too?

I have released the following:

If I made a lot of money, as much as I want, I would burn in hell

If I made a lot of money, as much as I want, I would turn to ashes, hell would engulf me, - hell would eat me, I would end up in hell

The rich go to hell

The rich burn in the flames of hell

The rich burn in hell

Hell eats the rich

I am afraid of hell if I get rich

I will burn in hell if I get rich

If I want wealth, I will burn in hell

If I want to be rich, I will burn in hell

Hell is for the rich

Riches take you to hell

Riches turn you to ashes

The rich go to hell

The rich turn into ashes

The rich burn alive

The rich burn alive in hell

The fire would burn the rich

The fire burns the rich

The rich burn in hell

Let the fire burn the rich

Let the fire burn the rich

Children of poor parents cannot be rich

 

We have released the following programs:

Children of poor parents can be rich no

Children of poor families can be rich no

Children of poor parents can earn a lot of money no

Children of poor families can earn a lot of money no

Children of poor parents can succeed in life no

Children of poor families can succeed in life no

Children of poor parents can be successful no

Children of poor families can be successful no

Children of poor parents can have beautiful and expensive things no

Children of poor families can have beautiful and expensive things no

Children of poor parents can travel to luxurious destinations and enjoy all the benefits there no

Children of poor families can travel to luxurious destinations no

Children of poor parents can have luxurious and expensive houses no

Children of poor families can have luxurious and expensive houses no

Children of poor parents can have a lot of money no

Children from poor families can have a lot of money No

Children from poor parents can have unlimited financial abundance no

Children from poor families can have unlimited financial abundance no

Children from poor parents can have a lot of money working a little no

Children from poor families can have a lot of money working a little no

Children from poor parents can have a lot of money doing what they like No

Children from poor families can have a lot of money doing what they like No

Children from poor parents can have a lot of money easily No

Children from poor families can have a lot of money easily No

If you have poor parents, you earn money hard

If you come from a poor family, you earn money hard

If you have poor parents, you earn money little

If you have poor parents, you earn money with a lot of work

If you come from a poor family, you earn money with a lot of work

If have poor parents, can you get rich no

If you come from a poor family, can you get rich No

If you have poor parents, can you have an easy life no

If you come from a poor family, can you have an easy life No

If you have poor parents, can you have beautiful and expensive houses no

If you come from a poor family, can you have beautiful and expensive houses no

If you have poor parents, can you have luxury things no

If you come from a poor family, can you have luxury things no

Poverty attracts poverty

The poor stay poor

If you are born poor, stay poor

August 11, 2024 - Abandonment and loneliness

 

When I was one year old, my parents were forced by circumstances to take me to the country to my grandparents where I grew up until I was 4 years old. They would occasionally come to see me, but they didn't manage to do so very often because there was no bus in the village, they didn't have a car and the nearest bus stop was in the next village where they had to cross the forest to get to me. At 4 years old, I returned to the city and they enrolled me in kindergarten where I was left among hostile strangers and where I was beaten because I didn't want to sleep at noon. I would hide under the white sheet that I still remember now, 40 years later, pretending to be asleep, but in fact I would suffocate because I didn't have air, waiting for the bedtime to pass in a state of constant fear. And now I suffocate at night when I go to bed if I feel that there is not enough oxygen in the room, I sleep as much as I can with the door open and in the winter I air it out 2-3 times a night.

20 years ago my mother lost her job and was forced, because in their city the options were very limited for a 50-year-old woman, to become a nanny for a disabled girl. I saw her about twice a year, for about 3 weeks in total. This year she managed to give her back to the home and strangely free herself from the obstacles put in place by my father who was not willing to give up the money he needed for his pleasures. At Easter she came to visit us for the first time without her and I felt that I finally had the chance to get closer to my mother after so many years, to have the much-desired relationship with my mother, a relationship that was interrupted when I was only one year old.

But...a month ago when she came back to spend time with me, her grandson and my family, my father called her back home (even though she had left with his consent) with threats that are hard to explain here, with a tirade of manipulations and lies that I don't want to go into detail.

She left with tears in her eyes, I don't know when I will have the chance to spend time with her again because his wound of abandonment, the one that makes him behave completely irrationally, accuse and threaten, is very strong, like mine. I felt abandoned again, a terrible pain in my soul when I watched her go down the hill to leave for the bus. And I sat and lay like that and cried for pity, and I avoided her calls and messages and it seemed to me that I was entitled to cry and suffer and be pitied.

My aunt, her sister, who has been away for 3 months with her children abroad, tries to pay attention to me as best she can from a distance, insists on talking, always tries to send me kind words and encourage me. And I...so that I can suffer in silence and continue to cry for pity, 3 days ago I answered her sharply, rejected her and made her very angry.

And then I realized something...does crying, accusing, throwing myself on the ground, rejecting everyone show how spiritually evolved I am? Does it make me any better than my father? And I decided to do something. I am better than that, I understand what my problems are, it hurts me, but I have methods and tools to solve something...I took the pen and started writing in my diary all the programs that I identified in the messages sent to my aunt, all the lamentations and complaints. And I took out about 6 pages that I released with the meditation below.

I am abandoned

I am tired

I am sad

I am always alone

Nobody has time for me

Everyone has time for me no

Loved ones have time for me no

Nobody feels like me

Everyone feels like hanging out with me no

I am so lonely

I am alone

Nobody hangs out with me

Everyone hangs out with me No

Everyone has other priorities besides me

I have a mother no

I have a father no

I have no one

I do what I can alone

I know which direction to take no

I can't anymore No

Do meditations and healing programs help me no

Nothing is solved

Everything is solved in my life no

I have been alone for years

I am mentally tired

I have a low vibration

I have a low vibration

I think negatively

I feel caged

I feel alone

I feel unsupported

I have somewhere to recharge No

I have someone to talk to No

Everyone pulls on me

I have strength No

Everyone gives me their time no

Nobody gives me their time

Nobody makes me feel appreciated in any way

Everyone makes me feel appreciated no

People run away from me

People pull me on the phone

Everyone asks for my time

Everyone asks for my advice

Nobody gives anything in return

Everyone gives me their time fairly no

Mom has time for me No

Everyone has other priorities elsewhere

I have no one to recharge from

I have people to rely on energetic charge No

I have nowhere to give anything of myself to anyone

I have a lot to offer no

I am tough

I manage to gather myself no

I manage to balance myself no

I manage to charge myself energetically no

Everyone runs away from me

I stay alone for days

Everyone wants to see me but from a distance

Everyone is pulling for me

Nobody offers me anything in return

Everyone offers me something in return for what I offer them no

I have where to go yes no

I am empty inside

I am drained inside

My mother has obligations towards me no

I feel a heavy state of depression

I feel a heavy state of abandonment

I manage to recover no

My vibration is very low

I manage to recover no

I can recover no

I have the strength to talk to others no

I have to pretend that I am fine when I am not

I am exhausted

The state of depression ends no

The state of abandonment ends no

My mother disturbs me with her messages and phone calls

My mother is next to me no

My mother's messages and phone calls make me sick

My mother's messages and phone calls give me a stomachache

I have the strength to answer my mother on the phone and messages no

I can't control myself no

I feel abandoned by my mother

I feel abandoned by everyone

I'm afraid everyone is abandoning me

I want attention

I'm desperate for attention

I suffer if I don't get attention

At the end of the session, after the command "Show me" I saw the tops of the trees in a forest, at night in the dark, then my gaze dropped down to where there was a clearing, at their foot. In the clearing a wooden table, light, warmth and about 7-8 people waiting for me, all dear people I was sitting next to. A beautiful image.

And what do you think? About an hour after I listened to the meditation, my husband, who has been traveling quite often lately, announced to me that he would not be leaving the next day as he had planned, but decided to stay at home with me for another day and make his trip on Tuesday. And without me saying anything at all. I really appreciated the change and we spent a beautiful and peaceful evening together...

I feel like I have a different strength after the meditation, as if I don't have so much desire to cry out of pity anymore. My mother is still not with me, but the separation is easier to bear. Who knows what changes are coming...

All the best to everyone,

Geo

August 8, 2024 - Centuries-old mental programming - Ioan Slavici “Let man be content with his poverty”

 

Today, on the Portal of the Lion, by chance or not, I came across this post on Facebook, a post that caused me a terrible state of revolt. Ioan Slavici, in "Moara cu noroc" says through one of his characters: "A man should be content with his poverty, because, if it comes to it, it is not wealth, but the peace of your hut that makes you happy". It is true, the character says it, but the idea revolted me. And why couldn't we have both wealth and peace, Mr. Ioan Slavici? Why only one or the other? Why did people have to be content with little? So that they wouldn't have power? So that they wouldn't think too much? So that they would always be concerned about what they will eat tomorrow and wouldn't have time to look up at what is happening behind them? Are things somehow the same today? Do you live well? Do you have both wealth and peace? Or don't you have even one of the two anymore?

You can find the post here: https://www.facebook.com/story.php?id=61553730848586&story_fbid=122159200238124361 The good thing is that besides the sheep who nod their heads, there are also many who refuse to accept the idea. Most of them express themselves brutally, but they refuse to accept the same centuries-old programming and show that they have woken up. And that is encouraging.

I took the pen and wrote the following meditation, which of course I applied to myself first. I have released the following:

Wealth brings happiness no

Wealth brings peace no

Only the peace of your hut brings happiness

You must be content with what you have

You must be content with little

Poverty is happiness

Poverty means happiness

A man must be content with his poverty

You must be content with your poverty

Wealth makes you happy no

Wealth gives you peace no

Greed loses humanity

If you are content with little you will progress

If you are content with little you will be happy

We can be rich and peaceful no

We can be rich, peaceful, and happy no

We can have it all no

I remind you that before listening to it you must enter the theta state. Here are the steps to follow.

All the best,

Geo

August 7, 2024 - Woman must submit to man

 

 In anii 1950-60 (si aveti o imagine dintr-un ziar alaturi) femeile erau in general casnice, nu erau incurajate sa studieze sau sa aiba un serviciu, li se cerea atentie sporita fata de nevoile barbatului de langa ele, li se cerea sa ii indeplineasca acestuia toate nevoile cu prioritate, inclusiv sa il ajute sa se descalte sau sa ii ofere o bautura, li se cerea sa gateasca, sa fie mereu impecabile in fata lui, sa nu il deranjeze in absolut nici un fel, sa prezinte o imagine impecabila in prezenta lui pentru placerea si confortul lui care erau prioritare. Am citit undeva la un moment dat si despre regulile din dormitor, nu m-am mai obosit sa le caut, dar si acolo primeaza nevoile barbatului iar femeia si acolo trebuie sa serveasca, nu este egala in drepturi si nu are voie sa aiba dorinte si aspiratii. Munca din casa nu era cuantificata la aceeasi valoare cu munca facuta de barbat la serviciu iar femeii i se cerea sa fie recunoscatoare daca primeste atentie din partea barbatului sau vreo multumire pentru munca ei. 

Atunci aceste reguli erau considerate normale. Astazi femeile se simt revoltate citind materialul, dar multe dintre ele nu constientizeaza ca inca se comporta asa cum au fost invatate mamele si bunicile lor si ca multe dintre ele, desi revoltate constient, inca recunosc puterea deplina a barbatilor asupra lor si inca se supun orbeste.

Nu sustin feminismul fals si artificial care se promoveaza acum, nu ma intelegeti gresit - este o aberatie care imbraca femeia cu haine de barbat si o pune sa lucreze cot la cot cu el sau chiar sa ii ia locul in meseriii care nu ii sunt caracteristice, care ii schimba energia in cea de barbat facand-o partener al barbatului care o abandoneaza sau o abuzeaza pentru ca el nu vrea un "partener de bere" ci o forta complementara feminina langa el, o femeie. Daca va intrebati de ce multe femei "puternice" sunt singure, iata explicatia. Barbatul cauta instinctiv langa el energia feminina complemantara, nu cauta un alt barbat in casa.

Revenind la ideea de la care am plecat, femeile de secole au fost marginalizate, calcate in picioare, arse pe rug daca stiau prea multe si aveau prea multa putere pe care barbatii nu o puteau intelege, supuse, alungate din scoli pentru ca "educatia prosteste mintea unei femei"...si asta de niste barbati slabi care s-au temut de energia feminina si au cautat sa o elimine nestiind in ignoranta lor cata nevoie au de ea ca sa fie impliniti.

Am spune ca pana astazi ar fi cazul ca barbatii si femeile sa se trezeasca, dar nu este asa...bunica mea inca il descalta pe bunicul si ii tolera bataile care i se pareau normale, mama inca ii suporta tatei jignirile si inca se ridica sa ii dea sarea la masa desi e mai aproape de el decat de ea, inca il serveste cand se aseaza la masa si asteapta sa fie servit fara sa faca absolut nimic si el ca sa o ajute pe ea. Tata considera ca baietii aduc noroc in casa - nu primeste niciodata la Craciun fete colindatori daca in prealabil nu a primit baieti. Apoi pot veni si fetele - imaginati-va ce tragedie o fi fost cand primul lui nascut a fost...fata! Sunt lucruri si obiceiuri "normale" pentru ca asa s-au perpetuat de secole. Si...culmea am observat ca si eu le am adanc in mine. Ma tem de furia barbatului, mi se pare normal sa il servesc, sa mananc eu dupa ce mananca el, sa astept, sa pun ce e mai bun la el in farfurie...si alte aberatii din acestea pe care sotul meu nu mi le-a cerut niciodata, cu care nu se simte in largul lui si pe care incearca sa le combata de fiecare data cand le observa. Ma cearta si nu este de acord cu comportamentul meu servil si umil. Am decis sa il ascult si am scris pe foaie urmatoarele programe (muuulte, neasteptat de multe) pe care le-am eliberat in meditatia urmatoare (aici pasii unei meditatii theta):

Femeia trebuie să fie la dispoziția bărbatului 

Plăcerea bărbatului este mai importantă decât cea a femeii 

Bărbatul trebuie servit mereu 

Bărbatul nu trebuie lăsat să aștepte 

Bărbatul nu trebuie contrazis 

Bărbatul nu trebuie certat 

Autoritatea bărbatului asupra femeii este foarte importantă în familie, este cea mai importantă în familie

 Femeia trebuie să il servească pe bărbat 

Nevoile bărbatului sunt mai importante decât cele ale femeii 

Nevoile bărbatului trebuie întotdeauna îndeplinite cu prioritate 

Trebuie să arăți impecabil în fața bărbatului întotdeauna 

Bărbatul are voie să se odihnească, femeia trebuie să muncească 

Bărbatul trebuie mereu să fie ascultat 

Bărbatul trebuie mereu să fie distrat 

Bărbatul trebuie mereu să fie hrănit și îngrijit 

Bărbatul trebuie mereu să fi ajutat 

Bărbatul trebuie mereu să fie lăsat să se odihnească 

Bărbatul trebuie mereu apreciat și încurajat încontinuu 

Bărbatul trebuie mereu să se bucure de confort 

Confortul bărbatului este mai important decât al femeii 

Liniștea, satisfacția și relaxarea bărbatului sunt întotdeauna mai importante decât cele ale femeii

Bărbatul trebuie ascultat în permanență 

Ceea ce are bărbatul de spus este mai important decât ceea ce are femeia de spus 

Problemele și grijile bărbatului sunt mai importante decât cele ale femeii 

Bărbatul nu trebuie niciodată cicălit, deranjat sau supărat 

Femeia trebuie să se descurce singură 

Bărbatul este mai important decât femeia 

Bărbatul este mai presus decât femeia 

Bărbatul este mai inteligent decat femeia 

Bărbatul este mai capabil decât femeia 

Bărbatul este mai bun decât femeia 

Bărbatul este mai de încredere decât femeia 

Bărbatul este mai util decât femeia 

Băieții aduc noroc în familie, fetele sunt o povară si un ghinion în familie 

Fetele aduc ghinion 

Femeile sunt rele 

Femeile trebuie puse la locul lor 

Femeile trebuie să stea la cratiță și să crească copiii 

Femeia nu trebuie să îl deranjeze pe bărbat 

Femeia nu trebuie să-l incomodeze pe bărbat 

Femeia nu trebuie să-l supere pe bărbat 

Dorințele bărbatului trebuie întotdeauna îndeplinite cu prioritate 

Bărbatul este cel care aduce bani în casă 

Bărbatul trebuie întotdeauna respectat 

Bărbatul are drept de viață și de moarte asupra femeii și asupra familiei lui 

Bărbatul este cel mai important 

Bărbatul este creierul casei și al familiei 

Bărbații fac mereu totul perfect 

Un băiat este o binecuvântare în casă, o fată este un ghinion și o belea 

Bărbatul trebuie mereu pus pe primul plan 

Bărbatul trebuie să fie satisfăcut primul 

Plăcerea și satisfacția femeii sunt lipsite de importanță 

Munca bărbatului este mai importantă decât cea a femeii 

Reușitele bărbatului sunt mai importante decât cele ale femeii 

Femeia trebuie să dovedească că merită, bărbatul merită oricum 

Femeia merită să se bucure de viață nu 

Femeia merită să se bucure de plăcere nu 

Femeia merită să se bucure de satisfacții nu 

Femeia merită să se bucure de corpul ei nu 

Femeia trebuie mulțumită nu 

Femeia trebuie satisfăcută nu 

Femeia trebuie ascultată nu 

Femeia contează nu 

Dorințele femeii contează nu 

Bucuriile femeii contează nu 

Plăcerile femeii contează nu 

Munca femeii contează nu 

Efortul femeii contează nu 

Femeia trebuie să servească bărbatul și familia 

Femeia trebuie să fie la dispoziția bărbatului 

Femeia trebuie să asculte și să facă cum îi spune bărbatul 

Bărbatul își poate permite orice cu femeia 

Bărbatul are doar drepturi în fața femeii 

Femeia are doar obligații în fața bărbatului 

Femeia trebuie să execute ce i se spune, nu să gândească prea mult 

Studiul și gândirea îi sunt dăunătoare femei 

Bărbatul este cel care trebuie să studieze și să gândească 

Bărbatul întotdeauna știe mai bine 

Femeia este ignorantă 

Femeia trebuie să asculte de bărbat 

Femeia nu trebuie să facă nimic de capul ei 

Femeia este proastă 

Femeia este incapabilă 

Femeia trebuie ghidată de bărbat 

Numai bine tuturor,

Geo

August 5, 2024 - Pitta Dosha (Ayurveda) and the specific characteristics to balance

 

About 2 months ago I accidentally (or not?) came across a post on Facebook that talked about the 3 main types of physical and psychological constitutions (dosha in Sanskrit, which means impurities). What are these? Simple and clear - they are those elements that make us up, that give us life force, but which can also unbalance us if we don't keep them under control. Each person has a certain constitution made up of one or more of the elements fire, water, air, ether and earth. The Indians have grouped these possible combinations into 3 constitutions:

- pitta dosha - the combination of fire and water, 80% fire, 20% water - these are very energetic people who make things work, the initiators of projects, those who don't sit in one place at all, always on the go, but who also easily ignite and "burn" everything around them;

- vata dosha - the combination of air and ether - the extraordinarily creative people, full of ideas, with a mind as light as air, but sometimes with their "head in the clouds";

- kapha dosha - 40% earth, 60% water - the very stable, steadfast people, "with their feet on the ground", reliable, but difficult to steer in one direction.

We can have one or more dominant doshas. I am pitta, the child pitta and vata, the husband all three. They are tests to see where we fit in. These doshas are also our strengths, but also those that can weaken us greatly if they are not in balance. I will not write here everything I have learned about them, I invite you to study, but what I can tell you is that each of these types of people can become unbalanced when we eat the wrong food for each (too many fire foods - chili peppers, spices, sour food - in the case of the fire constitution for example), when we stay in the wrong environment for a long time (e.g. in a cold and humid environment for the earth dosha which is cold and humid anyway) or when we perpetuate characteristic negative feelings for too long (sadness, depression for example for the vata dosha or anger for the pitta dosha). I will give you just a few examples. I repeat, it is useful to study in as much detail as possible. It is a new field for me too, but extremely fascinating.

Balancing is done by appealing to elements opposite to those of which we are made. For example, in the case of pitta, instead of eating sour and spicy, we will add bitter, sweet (healthy ones of course, such as fruits) or astringent foods to the diet. The worst thing is, those tastes that we generally don't like because we are attracted to those specific to us. With watermelon I managed to regulate my constipation in just a few hours!! So you can see how well it works if you know what to do. Now I drink water every morning with a teaspoon of milk thistle seed powder (which are sweet and bitter) and I haven't had any problems for over a week. I used to be constipated for months in a row.

Well, well... I extended it but it was necessary.

I balanced the physical part a little, but spiritually I still didn't feel balanced. And I decided to read what are those characteristics of pitta (if you are also interested in vata or kapha, please write to me in the comments, maybe I can design balancing meditations for those too) that make me unbalanced. As I said, pitta are energetic people, leaders, project initiators, long-distance people who make things work. Yes...they are also aggressive sometimes, angry, critical, furious. I wrote down all the negative characteristics of this dosha (you have them below), I intuitively noted the programs that inspired me for each characteristic, then I released them with the help of the Theta meditation that you will find below, adding to each of them the definition and the truth from the highest plane related to the opposite characteristic of each. For example, I took out "I am aggressive" and I downloaded the feeling of being peaceful...and so on.

The meditation is long, about 25 minutes, arm yourself with patience and look for a quiet environment where you will not be disturbed.

Enter as usual before listening to it in the theta state.

For those who have not taken the theta courses: theta is a deep state of relaxation, similar to the one before sleep, but in which our consciousness is still awake. We reach it by following these steps:

1. We breathe deeply with our eyes closed several times, optionally we can imagine during the exhalation how we release all the negative things that no longer serve us

2. We go with our attention to our heart

3. We go with our attention to the center of the Earth from where we gather as much energy as possible, which we ascend through the soles of our feet to the top of our head where it emerges forming a protective globe of light around us

4. We imagine that we ascend with this globe above the house, the city, the Earth, we pass through layers and layers of light and darkness until we reach a plane with pearly white light, the highest plane and in which the creator of All welcomes us to whom we address the meditation recorded below. During the meditation it is normal to yawn. Yawning is a form of release of energy. After each released program it is recommended to say yes/I receive/I release in your mind because everything is done with your consent.

After the command "Show me" we can stay for a few moments to see if the All Creator has something concrete to show us, images, sounds, anything we receive intuitively.

5. Finally we give thanks and imagine how we take the newly accumulated energy back to the center of the Earth and then we go up through our soles into the entire body - the grounding process.

The purpose of the meditation is to extract from the subconscious the programs that no longer serve us and to download beneficial ones instead, starting from the premise that these programs from the subconscious are the ones that actually lead our lives.

We worked on the following:

being aggressive vs. I downloaded being peaceful

being conflictive vs. being a pacifist and feeling peaceful

showing superiority vs feeling equal

judging vs being thoughtful/thoughtful, forgiving/forgiving, appreciating/appreciating and understanding/being understanding

suffering from pride vs being modest

being manipulative vs having common sense, empathy, altruism, trust

suffering from jealousy vs being happy for the successes of others

being irritable being calm

blaming others vs taking responsibility

fighting, being combative vs peace/pacifist

having obsessions/burning desires vs accepting life, the flow of life, my needs are met

being competitive vs collaborating, femininity (starting from the idea that being competitive is a masculine characteristic)

discriminating vs accepting others as they are, equality

criticizing vs idem judging

being egocentric vs being altruistic

being hostile vs. being friendly

being impatient vs. being patient and enjoying peace

being angry vs. being calm, quiet, temperate

being harsh vs. being gentle

Have a joyful day,

Geo

August 3, 2024 - I always have to give something in return

 

Lately we have been having problems with water and we decided to find a team to find us a more stable water source. Since we have been looking and things are going well, our yard animals have started to die again, first a duckling, last night another duck, various causes, some health issues, some attacks. I also had a dark period in the spring when 5 ducks and a cat died, one after the other. The situation brought to my mind the idea that "I always have to give something in exchange" if I want to receive something, that I have to sacrifice. I don't know if it's right or not, there must always be balance in the Universe, but why does the exchange have to be painful?

I sat down at the table with the Theta agenda next to me, I was inspired to open a grapefruit essential oil, maybe because its bitter aroma seemed to me to fit the situation and I started writing all the programs that wanted to be written, without thinking too much, without looking for any logic...

I released the following:

I have to give something in exchange for everything I receive

I can receive without exchanging no

There must always be an exchange

There must always be a compensation

I can receive without exchanging no

I can receive without paying no

Anything is possible without exchanging no

Exchange is mandatory

Barter is mandatory

It is possible without paying no

I have to pay for anything

I can only get it if I pay

I can only get something if I pay

There is plenty for everyone no

Everything must be paid for

Everything is paid for

Life is bitter

You have to pay dearly for everything you want

You can have it without paying

For everything you want, the universe always takes something in exchange

The universe doesn't give anything for free

The universe doesn't give anything for free

The universe doesn't give anything without payment

You always have to pay

Everything has to be paid for

Without exchange and a bitter taste, you can't have anything

Any exchange must be bitter

Any exchange must be painful

Any exchange must be unpleasant

Any exchange must be unfair

Any exchange must be to my disadvantage

You have to lose in every exchange you make

Any exchange is at your loss

Any exchange makes you lose

In every exchange you have to lose

Any exchange leaves you with a bitter taste

You can have it without giving anything in exchange

You can receive it without giving anything in exchange

The universe is abundance and for me no

I have to pay with my life

If I want life, I have to give life in exchange

I have to sacrifice what I love

I have to lose what I love

I have to give up what I love

Life requires sacrifice

What you want requires sacrifice

You can have it without sacrifice no

You can have it without sacrificing anything in exchange no

Sacrifice is necessary

Pleasure requires Sacrifice

Work requires Sacrifice

Art requires Sacrifice

Every pleasure is accompanied by pain

There is pleasure without pain no

Laughter with crying

After laughter comes crying

There is laughter without crying no

To laugh you must also cry

To enjoy you must also suffer

I remind you that before listening to it you must enter the theta state. Here are the steps to follow.

And a little about grapefruit oil, which I was drawn to in developing the list of programs to release: it helps cleanse the aura and mental body, releases confusion and chaos from thoughts, helps us get rid of patterns of neglect and abuse towards ourselves.

July 29, 2024 - Past Mistakes and My Dark Sides

 

I've been feeling unbalanced for a few days and this morning I decide to ask the tarot why. The cards I get are Temperance (the balance between good and evil) and Judgment (being honest - with myself, I fill in). With the help of myrrh essential oil as inspiration, I release the following programs:

I am disappointed in myself

I am disgusted with myself

I feel guilty about the way I behave

I feel guilty about my excesses

I am unbalanced

I detest myself as I am

I hate myself as I am

I must be only light and love

I accept my origins NO

I accept my race NO

I accept my relatives NO

I accept the flaws of my ancestors NO

I accept the darkness in my race NO

I accept my dark traits NO

I am honest with myself NO

I accept my flaws NO

I repeat the mistakes of the past

Also download the following:

I am duality

I am a combination of good and evil, darkness and light

I accept my dark sides too, but I work to heal them

Out of opposites, harmony is created

I accept the darkness of me

I am in balance

I am at peace

I am both light and dark

I am at peace with myself

I am safe with myself

I am in harmony

I know how to balance myself

I accept myself as I am

I accept the darkness in me and work to heal it

I accept the darkness in me and heal it

I know how to heal myself

I accept that I am not only light

I accept that I also have dark sides

I work to heal my dark sides

I accept that I have also taken over dark sides from my lineage

I live life accepting the darkness in me and healing it

I download from the highest plane the perspective and truth about duality, light, darkness, balance, peace, sincerity

I download from the highest plane the perspective and truth about the virtues taken over from my lineage - courage, joy, determination, self-confidence, intelligence

I ask for the recovery of soul fragments

I ask termination of contracts

I remind you that before listening to it you must enter the theta state. Here you can find the steps to follow.

In the end I feel better, more at peace... I start studying the science of life Ayurveda which I came across by chance last night and which I was attracted to, I also find some courses, a new path opens up for me...

July 26, 2024 - The weight of waiting and loyalty to my grandmother

 

For years I have been waiting for my loved ones to come back to me. My husband, since I met him, had a job that took him away from me for weeks on end. For years I kept asking him to change his job and he only changed it when the little one came. All the joy didn't last long. He got a job at a company where the workload kept increasing year by year and in about 4-5 years in which he stayed home more than before, now he goes away again every week for 2-3 days/week. All together, it's years of waiting.

Then I waited for my mother to finish her contract as a maternal assistant for a disabled person, to retire so that she could come and spend time with me - I saw her twice a year, about 2 weeks in total. She retired, but my waiting continued because of disagreements with my father who wouldn't let her come to us because he needed her there.

Then an aunt moved in with us. She spent a wonderful summer with us, but then slowly she started coming less and less often because of the lack of comfort at our place and her various ailments that have tormented her over the years. For several years now I have been waiting for her to spend more than a few days a summer with us.

Then there were my in-laws who used to come visit us almost weekly. Now they come 1-2 times/year even though we live 15 km away. They are also so overwhelmed with work, bills, problems that they don't really care about visits. They just want to rest. I am the same as we were 15 years ago before we moved to the country.

I am very alone, overwhelmed, with only my child who I still care about. Waiting for someone to come to me is hard, oppressive, overwhelming... today my first impulse was to take care of my mother. I was so drained of energy that I felt the need to throw all my burdens in front of her and charge myself with her energy (see the 4 types of energy thieves described by James Redfield in The Celestine Prophecies).

And then my grandmother came to mind, my mother's mother, the one who raised me until I was 4 years old and whom I cared about very much. She too was waiting for her loved ones, and she waited for years for my grandfather to return from the war, then for him to come home on Saturdays while he worked in the city, then she waited for the children, then the grandchildren. Her whole life was a long and hard wait. And I realized that out of affection for her, I chose to live her life. I chose to create those situations and circumstances that would make me understand her weight and the suffering that come with waiting. I am sometimes so insistent that according to the law of eristic escalation/balance, people move away from me precisely to return to balance because my desire for company is exaggerated and disrupts the balance.

I sat down at the table with all 50 essential oils I have, intuitively searching among them for those that will inspire me in this healing process. I was drawn to fir and bergamot. I put a few drops of both on a napkin and started writing. Without stopping, everything that came to me intuitively and trying to feel what my grandmother felt when the weight of waiting pressed down on her. It wasn't hard actually because I knew what it was like, I knew very well what it meant to wait for my loved ones for days, months, years...

I released the following programs, beliefs and patterns:

I am an orphan

I have no parents

I have no mother

Waiting is hard

Waiting weighs me down

Waiting burdens me

I need my loved ones always by my side

I need my loved ones to be well

I need help

I need my loved ones to be at peace

I can manage without my loved ones no

My parents are by my side no

My parents support me no

My parents help me no

My parents love me no

I feel good with my parents no

I have parents no

I have lost my roots

My roots are weak

My roots are withered

I have strong roots no

I am supported no

I feel supported no

I have help no

I have loved ones by my side no

I am alone

I am carrying all the weight alone

I am tired of waiting

No one helps me

I have no help

I have no support

I am alone in the world

I belong to no one

I am faithful to my grandmother and waiting for my loved ones

I am faithful to my grandmother and without repeating her life patterns no

I must be faithful to my grandmother

I love my grandmother by living a life like hers

I show my grandmother that I love her by living a life like hers

I show my grandmother that I love her by always being alone

I show my grandmother that I love her by always waiting for my loved ones

I show my grandmother that I love her by always doing things alone

I show my grandmother that I love her by always longing for my loved ones

I show my grandmother that she I love without a mother

I show my grandmother that I love her without parents

I am loyal to my grandmother if I am always alone too

I am loyal to my grandmother if I am always waiting for my loved ones too

I am loyal to my grandmother if I am also without a mother

I am loyal to my grandmother if I live the life she lived

I am loyal to my grandmother if I am always alone

I am loyal to my grandmother if I have a life full of hardships like her

I am loyal to my grandmother if I manage without a husband and without parents

I am loyal to my grandmother if I wait for my loved ones to always come to me like she did

I am loyal to my grandmother if I wait for what I want to come to me someday

I live my grandmother's life out of love and loyalty to her

I have to show my grandmother that I love her and that I am loyal to her

Women must wait for their man at home

Women must stay at home

Women must take care of the house themselves

Women must manage the house and children themselves

A woman must be strong

I remind you that before listening to her, you must enter the theta state. Here are the steps to follow.

During the meditation, I felt the need to pour bergamot oil into my palms several times. I only used the fir tree while I was writing down the programs, for inspiration. After the meditation I felt a sense of liberation, peace and calm because I could show my grandmother that I care about her without having to live her life and her hardships.

I discovered why I was so drawn to the two oils, after reading about them:

Fir tree - gives a state of tranquility, calm, relaxation, peace and helps with concentration

Bergamot - helps restore emotional balance, helps establish authority over your own life, restores inner strength, useful in moments of depression, anxiety and sadness

All the best to everyone,

Geo

July 24, 2024 - Patchouli and the connection with Mother Earth

 

After attending some of Loredana Savencu's sessions from the Womb Wisdom program and studying the essential oils she has created programs for so far, I finally receive the cocoa mass I ordered online for the ceremony in the last session of the program. I boil water and make myself a phenomenal cup of cocoa. I watch the ceremony Loredana recorded a few days ago, with the intention of connecting with myself and Mother Earth, I enjoy the cocoa and expect miracles...

Miracles that are delayed. On the contrary.

The first night I have trouble sleeping, like after a strong coffee. I feel weak and agitated. I can't get into the theta state so easily anymore. I tell myself it's normal because the dose of cocoa (45 grams) was quite high and I'm not used to it because I rarely drink coffee.

I plan to try it again and drink the cocoa earlier in the morning. Strangely enough, during the meditation, the roots that I imagine for grounding feel weak and withered. I don't understand what's happening. Cocoa is supposed to help me connect with Mother Earth, not make me weak. I ask Loredana and she explains - "if I weaken your roots, it could be a breakup"... well, that's how it is. A breakup with my father who took to the fields in his old age, forbids my mother from coming to visit us, sees potential rivals everywhere, spends his pension on gambling. I painfully remove him from my life after some nasty words addressed to my family. And yes, this weakens my roots.

I decide to work on this chapter. I use patchouli oil to inspire me to intuitively write the limiting programs in my diary so that I can then translate them into meditation. I am very attracted to the smell of mint and cocoa. Surprising after about a month ago I couldn't stand it.

I release the following and feel better, calmer, more at peace:

I easily connect with Mother Earth no

I easily materialize everything that is beneficial for me no

I am connected to Mother Earth no

I have unlimited abundance in my life no

I am prosperous no

I worry about my life on Earth

Mother Earth provides me with everything I need every day no

I am at peace no

I am relaxed that all my needs are met every day no

All my needs are met every day no

I live in abundance no

I live in prosperity every day in my life no

I enjoy abundance every day of my life no

I have everything that is beneficial for me NO

I easily receive everything that is beneficial for me no

Mother Earth protects me no

Mother Earth defends me no

I am safe here on Mother Earth no

I know what and how to ask Mother Earth so that to be well here on Earth no

I enjoy living on Mother Earth no

I enjoy life on Mother Earth no

I am at peace on Mother Earth no

I am safe on Mother Earth no

I am well on Mother Earth NO

Mother Earth helps me no

Mother Earth listens to me No

Mother Earth loves me NO

Mother Earth protects me NO

Mother Earth hears me NO

Mother Earth supports me no

Mother Earth appreciates me no

Mother Earth is next to me no

Mother Earth teaches me no

Mother Earth is with me no

Mother Earth feeds me no

Mother Earth quenches my thirst no

Mother Earth warms me no

Mother Earth cools me no

I know how to contemplate nature no

I know how to enjoy the beauty around me no

I know what is beneficial for me no

I know how to ask for what I want no

I know how to get rid of fears no

I release fears No

I know how to get rid of patterns that are not beneficial to me no

I release patterns that are not beneficial to me no

I know how to get rid of beliefs that are not beneficial to me no

I release what does not serve me no

I know how to get rid of what does not serve me NO

I free myself from the wounds of the past NO

I transform myself into a better version of myself every day no

I am surrounded by happy people no

Life on Earth is wonderful no

We have everything we need NO

We have everything we need no

We receive everything we need from Mother Earth every day no

I know how to relax no

I know how to be at peace NO

I am at peace NO

Life is a joy no

I remind you that before listening to it, you must enter the theta state. Here are the steps to follow.

July 21, 2024 - Monica Ion - conflicts within the Romanian nation

 

I'm listening to Monica Ion's Friday Spark about the limiting programs of the Romanian people. I realize that I have many of them too. Inspired by Monica's material, I release the following:

You have to work hard to get something

Laziness is a bad thing

I should be paid for the time I put in, not for the results

You have to work hard to get something

We are all victims

You have to put in a lot of effort to get something

You have to work hard to get something

Laziness is a negative thing

Others are to blame

It's always someone else's fault

I have control over my life, not

Having a lot of money is shameful

It's shameful to have money

I have to hide how much money I have

Having a lot of money means you did something wrong

You only have money if you steal

You only have money if you have relationships

You only have money if you cheat someone else

If you have a lot of money, you are a bad person

Christians have a lot of money No

If you have a lot of money you are a good Christian No

If you have a lot of money you are in alignment with God No

If you have a lot of money you are in alignment with divinity No

Good Christians must be poor

If you have a lot of money, you have forgotten where you came from

If you have a lot of money, you are arrogant

If you have a lot of money, you help the poor No

It is bad to have a lot of money

If you have a lot of money, you are judged by the world

You are allowed to have more than you need NO

If you have a lot of money, you separate yourself from the masses

If you have a lot of money, you deny your family

If you have a lot of money, you deny your friends

If you have a lot of money, you respect your family and friends NO

If you are not like others, you are definitely not a good person

Relationships are more important than money

Relationships are more important than anything else

I have to be loyal to my family

I have to be loyal to my people

I can do better than my family no

If I have a lot of money, I betray my family

I can do better than my family no

I am allowed to do better than my family no

I can do better than my family no

I can do better than my people no

I am allowed to do better than my people no

I hide how much I earn from my family

I feel guilty if I don't give money to my family

I earn money with hard work

I earn money with effort

Whoever stands out must be punished

Whoever is not loyal to the family will be punished

We all have to be the same

Whoever thinks differently will be punished

If you are unique you will be punished

If you create something special or different you will be punished

If you are unique you must be punished

If you create something special or different you must be punished

The all-creator is harsh

The all-creator is vengeful

The all-creator is strict

The all-creator is cold

The all-creator punishes me

I am afraid of the all-creator

I am afraid of making a mistake in front of the all-creator

I am afraid of making a mistake

I am responsible for how others feel

I must not make a mistake

I am allowed to make a mistake no

I am responsible for others

I must be like others

I can be different

I am allowed to be different no

I am safe if I am different no

It is normal to suffer

It is normal to sacrifice

It is normal to be unhappy

I am appreciated when I suffer

I am appreciated when I sacrifice myself

I am appreciated when I am unhappy

I am condemned to suffering

Suffering is appreciated

I must only think positively

I have the right to be happy NO

You can have money and health no

You can have money and love no

You can have money and a fulfilling relationship no

You can have money and faith

You can have money and a good relationship with divinity

I must be modest

I must be content with little

I must be content with either money or health

I must be content with either money or love

I must be content with either money or a fulfilling relationship

I must be content with either money or a good relationship with the all-creator

I can I have it all no

Money is spiritual no

Money is the mirror of my spiritual success NO

I deserve the best NO

I create my reality in accordance with universal laws no

The universe supports me no

I am in balance no

First I have to suffer so that I can be happy later

I remind you that before listening to it you must enter the theta state. Here you can find out how. 

What is a Theta meditation - steps

 

For those who have not taken theta courses: theta is a deep state of relaxation, similar to that before sleep, but in which our consciousness is still awake. We reach it by following the following steps (stated in her books by the author Vianna Stibal):

1. We breathe deeply with our eyes closed several times, optionally we can imagine during the exhalation how we release all the negative things that no longer serve us

2. We walk with our attention to our heart

3. We walk with our attention to the center of the Earth from where we gather as much energy as possible, which we ascend through the soles of our feet to the top of our head where it emerges forming a protective globe of light around us

4. We imagine that we ascend with this globe above the house, the city, the Earth, we pass through layers and layers of light and darkness until we reach a plane with pearly white light, the highest plane and in which the creator of All greets us to whom we address the recorded meditation. During meditation it is normal to yawn. Yawning is a form of energy release. After each released/changed program and after each program download or contract closing, it is recommended to say yes/I receive/I release in your mind because everything is done with your consent.

After the command "Show me" we can wait a few moments to see if the All-creator has something concrete to show us, images, sounds, anything we receive intuitively.

5. Finally, we give thanks and imagine how we take the newly accumulated energy back to the center of the Earth and then we raise it again through our soles into the entire body - this is the grounding process.

The purpose of meditation is to extract from the subconscious the programs that no longer serve us and to download beneficial ones instead, starting from the premise that these programs from the subconscious are the ones that actually lead our lives.

July 20 - water, fire, the weight of waiting

 

After 5 years of drought, our well only gave us 30 liters of water today. After the first moment of panic and the decision to do a more serious drilling in the near future, I decide to do a short meditation that also includes the need for water:

I release:

We have water no

We are short of water

We are thirsty

We have problems with water

Our water has decreased a lot in the well

We are going to die of thirst

It is very hot

It is drought

We have water for the animals no

We have water for us no

We have problems with water

Our water is abundant no

It rained a few days ago so that we will have water for the animals, we have already found a team to drill, we are in discussions and we hope to start work as soon as possible. We don't have water, but we have money to start drilling, we have a team with potential, we quickly agreed on the decision to drill as a family. Things are going well.

I resume the visualization exercises related to fire, determined to take another step forward in getting rid of fear. I focus on the fear of touching something hot (both from childhood and the image of the hot doorknob from the previous article related to fire). I realize that I am very afraid of the sound of fire, those small crackles and the smell of smoke. I release everything that comes to me intuitively related to these two elements:

I must always be attentive to the fire

I must always listen to the fire

I must always follow the fire

The fire burns me

I must always be attentive around me for the fire

The fire holds me captive

The fire does not let me be free

Because of the fire I cannot get out

Because of the fire I am not free

Fire is bad

Fire hurts me

I must stay away from the fire

The fire threatens me

The fire is threatening

I am surrounded by fire

The fire surrounds me

The sound of the fire takes my energy

The smell of the fire takes my energy

My feet get soft when I hear the sound or smell fire and smoke

The fire takes my energy

The fire destroys me

Fire is against me

I hear the sounds of fire everywhere

I smell fire everywhere

I panic at fire

I panic at signs of fire

I always expect fire to hurt me

I always expect fire to surround me

I always expect fire to attack me

I always expect fire to destroy me

It smells like smoke everywhere

I hear fire burning everywhere

I am at peace with fire no

I am balanced with fire no

I am safe with fire no

Fire is crackling and burning all the time

The crackling of fire takes my breath away

The crackling of fire drains my energy

The smell of fire takes my breath away

The smoke takes my breath away

The smell fire drains my energy

Smoke drains my energy

The smell of fire scares me

Smoke scares me

The smell of fire causes me panic

+ I download the definition of the feeling of safety from the highest plane

I feel better, I have released more of my fear. I still have to work with "Fire comes from the sky".

That one stuck in my mind from last time. It's probably related to war, bombs, airplanes.

I'll see. For now, I'm better with fire.

I feel overwhelmed again that I'm alone and I also release the following related to the weight of waiting

for loved ones, the weight of loneliness:

I always have to wait for my loved ones to come to me

I always have to wait to get something

I have to stay home and wait for your loved ones

The weight of expectations weighs on me

The waiting weighs on me

July 11, 2024 - cypress essential oil and control obsession

 

After the experience with Ylang Yland oil that I wrote about in the previous post, I decided to work with another oil that I don't like the way it smells - cypress. It suits rigid people, desperate for control, those who always want to push things in the direction they want, those who can't or don't feel safe letting things flow by themselves. "It suits" in the sense of "they need it in healing".

I intuitively identify (i.e. I sit with a pen in my hand and write in my diary everything that comes naturally) the following programs...

I am emotionally blocked

I am flexible no

I am rigid

I am tense

I am stuck in the past

I am a perfectionist

I am afraid that things will go crazy if I don't control them

I always have to be in control

I always have to control everything

I have to be in control of my money

I have to be in control of the rain

I have to be in control of my body

I have to be in control of my mind

I have to control everything

I know how to let life flow naturally no

I let life flow naturally no

I trust life no

I trust the natural course of things no

I trust others no

I am on my own path no

I am in a fog

I am scared that things are getting out of control my

I am scared that things are getting out of control

I need to be in control of things around me at all times

I need to control everything

I can let things flow by themselves no

I trust to let things flow by themselves no

I have a clear direction in life no

I am stuck in the past

I am stuck in the events, dramas, tragedies and injustices of the past

I am afraid of the course of my life

I am unsure of life, my path and my future

I am afraid of the unknown

I am afraid of the unknown

I am in flow no

I know how to be in the flow of life no

I trust to be in the flow of life no

After the session, cypress seems bearable to me, but not yet pleasant, so I still have work to do. I will come back to it when I feel it is necessary...rigidity is specific to those who have the wound of betrayal according to Lise Bourbeau's description. I will explore this later.

July 10, 2024 - About shame and guilt

 

These two feelings are at the bottom of David Hawkins' scale of consciousness, at levels 20 and 30, well below the neutral level of courage (level 200). They are the most energy-consuming feelings and the ones that need to be worked on intensively. From level 20 of shame, there is one more step to the decision to give up on life. Here are the people who no longer see any point in continuing their path here.

I make a list of all the things I'm ashamed of in my life (I have a few, mostly related to the way my body looks), of all the things I remember feeling guilty about (quite a lot, mostly related to my parents and family), and then a list of all the things I'm ashamed of and feel guilty about related to money (many related to the fact that I disappointed my family when I gave up a stable job after they invested in me for so many years to make a career, and the fact that I've spent too much on myself lately on personal development courses and various spirituality programs).

I release them all with Theta...

What's interesting to note - my perception of the scent of Ylang Ylang essential oil.

When I signed up for Loredana Savencu's program related to healing the intrauterine period and the relationship with parents, I also took a look at her essential oil program. Ylang Ylang was one of them, I happened to have it in the house but the smell seemed heavy, nauseating and unbearable.

After this Theta session I felt a strange and unexpected desire to smell it again. It attracted me instantly. I put a few drops in my palms and I couldn't stop smelling it - it seemed to me that it gathered all the perfumes of the earth - honey, pollen, dates, dozens of flowers, some phenomenal aromas that I couldn't stop smelling and feeling.

After this unexpected attraction I read the description of the perfume on Loredana's page:

"it supports those who have a hard time forgiving themselves and need to find peace in their souls."

What do you think? Since then I've loved this oil like crazy...I settled on its frequency.

July 9, 2024 - Again about fire - barbarians destroy my village with fire

 

For three days I "fermented" and sniffed all the hills and I flinched at every wisp of smoke that appeared in the neighbors, whether as an image or a smell. I decided to do another release session. I close my eyes and think about what it is about fire that makes me feel so scared. Proof that the previous session worked, I no longer feel physically threatened, but the thought of the fire destroying my house and shelter panics me. I see flashes of images of me being in a hilly place, similar to the one I live in now, and on all the surrounding hills I see fire, a sign that the barbarians are close and heading to destroy us and plunder our village. I see myself dressed in leather clothes, with my hair braided in two tails, scared and looking at the fire on the hill with fear. I decide to release the programs:

I am afraid of fire

The fire threatens my house and belongings

I am afraid of losing my belongings and house to the fire

I see fire on the surrounding hills, the barbarians are coming towards us to set fire to us, kill us and steal from us

The fire shows that they are approaching

Bandits are attacking my village with fire

Bandits are attacking my house with fire

Bandits are destroying my house with fire

Bandits are destroying my village with fire

The fire is causing me suffering

The fire is causing my family suffering

The fire is causing my village suffering

The fire is causing my neighbors suffering

The fire is causing my people suffering

The fire is destroying my shelter

I will no longer have a home because of the fire

The fire is destroying my house

The fire is destroying my shelter

I will no longer be safe because of the fire

I am losing my shelter

Fire is threatening me

Fire is threatening

Fire is being used against me

Fire is being used against my village

Fire is being used against my family

Fire is being used against my safety

Fire is being used against my freedom

I feel guilty that I cannot protect my house from fire

I feel guilty that I cannot protect my family from fire

I feel guilty that I cannot protect the village from fire

I feel guilty that I cannot protect my shelter from fire

I feel guilty that I cannot protect my freedom from fire

I feel guilty that I cannot protect the people from fire

Fire only causes me harm

Fire causes harm to my family, my village, my house, my shelter

Fire comes from the sky

The last one doesn't really have connection, I don't know why I felt like adding it, maybe I should explore it in a future session.

After the session I feel a little more at peace, but when I get ready to leave the house, I feel the doorknob hot. It's scorching hot outside and the sun has heated the doorknob very strongly. An image suddenly comes to my mind - me in a house on fire, the doorknob hot and I can't touch it to get out of that house... clearly I still have instances related to fire to heal... to come...