March 4 - March 6, 2025 A new guide, resume balancing all chakras using other methods

 

While I was looking for other alternatives for balancing the chakras a week ago, I also found Anokh's videos. At that time, they didn't appeal to me. This week, they did.

I decided to postpone the crown chakra and resume all the other chakras through other methods, namely affirmations, mantras and Hatha Yoga positions, the last one very interesting for me because I feel the effect on the physical body directly.

The first week - I accessed this meditation with affirmations and the LAM mantra, then I did the Hatha Yoga positions here for the lower chakras as best I could. I felt good and full of energy.

In parallel, today I felt the need to clean the yard and start arranging an area of ​​the garden where I can charge myself with energy. I really like roses and I miss them here. I ordered roses, a pergola and a boundary fence. I asked my husband to make me a bench in the coming period. I bring a little beauty into my environment, an environment that seemed ugly to me until now and depressed me. Today I felt like taking a step in this direction.

March 5 - this is what the Schumann resonance looks like, many light codes downloaded into us:

During this period I was attracted to Anokh's channel by the Letters of Christ. I learn very little new. It just confirms what I already knew and felt. Maybe just how we can control our ego.

I meditate on the prayer expressed in letter 8. I accept it, but not yet completely. I still feel like someone's puppet, I still feel controlled and used. I will work on myself. I still do not fully accept God as a loving parent. I still feel used.

Here is the prayer:

"Father Mother Life you are my life, my constant support, my health, my protection, the perfect fulfillment of every need and my highest inspiration.

I ask you to reveal to me your true reality. I know that it is your will that I be fully enlightened so that I can better receive the awareness of your presence in me and around me.

I believe and know that this is possible, I believe that you protect me and keep me within the framework of perfect love.

I know that my ultimate goal is to express yourself as I speak to you, I know that you are perfectly receptive to me because you are the universal loving intelligence that so wonderfully designed this world and brought it into visible form. I know that when I ask you to speak to me I send a reflection of consciousness into your divine consciousness and as I listen to you you will penetrate my human consciousness and come closer and closer to my mind and my heart is increasingly receptive.

I entrust myself and my life to your care."

I don't feel like capitalizing the words that refer to God, it annoys me that I have to do this, the idea of ​​submission and divinization of this being annoys me. At the same time, I feel guilty for not doing it and I fear punishment, proof that I have not yet eliminated all church dogmas from my subconscious.

March 6 - today I felt like lighting candles for all the women of my race who have lost their children, for their peace and for their liberation from the traumas involved in losing a child.

I'm still following Anokh's root chakra meditations.

Meditations are becoming less and less appealing to me every day. I still do one every now and then, but I don't find them very effective.

I stop and look at myself...I take a break...

How do you find your mission/purpose in life? I can't seem to...

 

I'm almost 44 years old and at this age I can't say for sure that I've found my mission in life. I don't feel like I'm still aligned with what I came here to do, everything around me is still shrouded in fog. I've done for years what I was told was right, what I was forced to do, what I was told I had to do, that it was right to do...and today I've come to doubt that I've done what I came to do. I don't have activities that I'm passionate about and that make me feel like I'm making a difference. It's difficult to suddenly find yourself without a purpose. For years I learned to get accepted to a top high school with good grades, then get my high school diploma with good grades, then get into a top college with good grades, then find a job where I'm well paid, then climb higher and higher in my career...I did all of this and it didn't bring me any joy or fulfillment. My family supports me and is by my side, I am grateful, but I don't feel like I was born to be a mother and a wife and that's it. I have peace and quiet, I live life like a permanent vacation the way I thought I wanted it...and that doesn't fulfill me either. I live in the middle of nature and it's beautiful and quiet, but that's not enough either. "You've had too much of a good thing!" some would say...those who are still fighting for a good school, for a good job, for a house, a family or for peace and quiet...don't you see how much you have?

I see, but I don't feel fulfilled. Something is missing. I don't feel like I'm making a difference in this world...I feel like life is passing me by and I'm numb...between dirty dishes, between working in the garden, between earning money, between feeding the animals in the yard, planting tomatoes in the garden, teaching the child to speak English, etc. I'm not making any difference in this world.

I have been working with myself for years spiritually, to raise my vibration, to make peace with my family heritage, with childhood and family traumas, with the negative emotions accumulated or received... and it's still not enough.

I don't feel like I'm on my path, I'm not moving towards my mission and purpose. And that's because I don't know what these are. And I started searching, reading, answering this question. And the worst part, I, who consider myself a person who knows what he wants, with an obedient mind, capable of making correct decisions quickly... I am not able to answer most of the following questions. I have let myself be so caught up in the daily routine, in problems, in this world full of suffering that I no longer see my higher purpose. Here are the questions I found to answer in order to clarify my mission in life:

1. What are my values? / What do I hate the most?

A: truth, authenticity, integrity / lies, falsehood, manipulation, violence against the weak

2. Why do I care?

A: my family, my peace, time for myself

3. What do I like to do?

A: I used to like a lot, now a lot of things don't appeal to me anymore, e.g. gardening or writing stories for children

4. What people do I admire?

A: I couldn't find anyone to add here

5. What do I admire?

A: people who succeed without complaining, without victimizing themselves, who don't give up, who manage.

6. Activities that I really like, that I would do even without money and in which I get lost (i.e. I don't realize when the time passes)

A: ???

7. What do I look like at my best? What do I do? How/where am I?

A:???

8. What am I really good at?

A: organization, motivating people, explaining to others what I know

9. What would I change in the world if I had to leave something behind me? I don't feel like getting involved in humanitarian actions, nor helping animals, nor even forest planting actions attract me like they used to...so, I don't know...I don't feel like I would make any difference if I started feeding the poor or stray animals like others do. Am I insensitive? I don't know. I simply feel like I have to let everyone live their own epic here in this sad hologram...Where could I make a concrete difference? I don't know...

The sad thing is that I didn't answer most of them. I feel stuck.

A few years ago (in 2015) I founded a group in which we helped local producers in my area sell quality goods. People didn't really know how to appreciate local products back then. The group grew in my county to about 44,000 people. Hundreds of kilos of goods were sold and bought there every day. And I felt useful. Following the model of my group, other groups appeared in other counties. Now local products are appreciated and sought after. The group was closed following the complaint of a dissatisfied customer who also did not receive an order of raspberries. And it was good for me because my mission had ended there and I could not get rid of it. But the idea remained and other groups flourished. At that time I felt good, useful.

But it was a stage. What is my mission... I still don't know and it's frustrating. I will try to answer the questions above...

All the best,

Geo

Week of February 25 - March 3, 2025 - Healing the Third Eye Chakra

 

Today I felt like lighting other candles for my ancestors in working with family constellations. Each candle is for a different problem being worked on. I worked especially with my grandmothers, with the fact that I repeat their traumas such as the fight for money and the need to empower my husband by not having my own money and asking for it from him, the fact that I don't have a beautiful and comfortable home like I want, the fact that I tend to always complicate my life, the fact that I feel like I don't deserve it if I don't serve others first, the fact that sometimes I get suffocated by what surrounds me - people, animals, problems. I made peace and left the traumas with the original "owners". It is not necessary for me to relive them.

To balance the chakra I used these two meditations from here and here.

Day 1, February 25 - meditation 1: state of peace and calm, slight dizziness. Meditation 2 - oh my God, how long it is, and an hour-long meditation!!! State of peace and quiet, slight dizziness and nausea. I listened for about 15 minutes with slight dizziness and nausea, but I was interrupted and resumed it in the evening. In the evening I could not listen to it anymore. I felt a strange, unfavorable energy behind me and Mon Aly's voice seemed changed to me. I correlated it with the fact that Mon Aly has disappeared from her Facebook group for 4 days and in her last post she asked for the help and good thoughts of the group because she has problems. I don't know what's happening to her, but I feel another energy behind the meditation, one that is not favorable to me. I will stop these meditations and look for other sources of meditations to balance the third eye chakra tomorrow. In addition, the cult atmosphere in her group literally gives me stomach aches. The "followers" call her the earthly goddess, their angel, dedicate poems and prayers to her. It's terrible and I don't resonate with the energy there anymore. Who knows what effect all this divinization has had on her ego. The group only approves posts that divinize her or recommend meditations from her YouTube channel, a channel choked with ads. Another guru corrupted by money and fame...

Day 2, February 26 - I listened to the Reiki meditation for balancing the third eye chakra with a state of peace and joy from another practitioner - Bailey Barbour. As negative states - slight pressure and pain in the forehead. Meditation here. I especially have other meditations by the same person during the day.

Towards evening I felt sick, agitated, nervous and had a huge argument with my husband about some stupid thing about where we were spending our vacation - with a severe headache and nausea and a painful left amygdala... only to discover when I finished that the Schumann resonance had taken off again. We need peace and calm. Let's be more careful because the atmosphere is already agitated on Earth.

Day 3, February 27 - I resumed the meditation from the previous day with the same state of peace, calm and light pressure on the forehead. I also watched two meditations for balancing the root chakra on the same channel. Every day I will resume one chakra from the past in addition to the one I am working on now. The meditations seem much more pleasant and easy to me. The other meditations that kept me stuck for an hour were starting to annoy me.

Day 4, February 28. I resumed the meditations for the third eye chakra here and here. At the same time, I resumed the balancing of the sacral chakra on the same channel. Every day I work with another chakra that is already balanced. I have a state of peace and tranquility at each session. I intend to follow the sessions for balancing for 7 days. They are pleasant and make me feel good.

Day 5, March 1. Today is a beautiful day, I planted seedlings and ordered pizza with the family. I received the meditations with peace and joy. In addition to the ones for the third eye, today I followed the ones for the solar plexus chakra here and here.

Day 6, March 2 - today it snowed a lot and beautifully at our place. But by the evening it had melted. I wasn't upset because I don't like the cold and snow too much. Today I focused on the two meditations for the third eye chakra plus two more for the heart chakra.

In addition, something interesting is happening in our yard - 3 foreign cats have appeared who are disputing the place of boss of our cats. We find them in the attic one by one, they have marked their territory, they are chasing away our cats who are weak and a bit useless. I'm making noise in the attic, I chased them away a few times then I remembered a post by Mon Aly before they disappeared from the group (by the way, tonight they appeared again, I'm thinking about whether to resume the meditations or not, I felt them deeper and more effective than the ones I do now and which are gentler - but maybe that's why I felt the need to change them, I'll listen to one for a while to see what energy I feel). In the post, Mon Aly said that we are about to change our destiny line for the better. A sign that we have succeeded in this is the fact that we see 3 cats. We have 8 cats, so I didn't really see how I could perceive these 3 cats, but look, they appeared - 3 strange cats - one red with white, another black with white and the third gray with white.

Day 7, March 3 - I started the day with Bailey's meditations for the third eye chakra and for the throat. I also added Mon Aly's two third eye chakra meditations to the list. I'm trying to follow them today to see how they go.

Afternoon - I tried listening to Mon Aly's third eye chakra meditations, but they still give me an unpleasant mood. I feel an unbeneficial energy behind them and her voice seems harsh to me. It's hard to explain. I tried listening to an older meditation of hers and it sounds different. It's like there's another person behind it. I won't insist anymore. I'll stop here and tomorrow I'll look for meditations for balancing the crown chakra.

Bert Hellinger's constellations taught me a new and very important thing: the relationship with my mother dictates the relationship with money. Tested on me last year when I had a bad relationship with both my mother and money. This year is different. Today I received a larger project and I happily sent my mother a gift for March 8th. I told her that she had a surprise in store for her and she was happy like a child. She is a person who does not know how to express her feelings and that is why for many years I considered her strange and cold. Things have to change.

All the best,

Geo

Week of February 22 - 24, 2025 - Throat Chakra Healing

 

When I was little, my father used to choke me by my neck when he was angry. In addition, I often feel the need to say that life/the animals in the yard/the people around me/the household chores are suffocating me. I started this journey thinking that I would work on this trauma and that I would probably have a lot of unpleasant sensations in my neck. That didn't happen. It is already the second chakra to which I have no unpleasant reactions at all.

I used these meditations from here and here.

Day 1 - first meditation - I listened in peace, calmly, but without any special feeling of joy or exaltation. Second meditation - I slept like a log about three quarters of the time.

I resumed last week's theme related to family constellations. Because I have suffered a lot from the cold lately, I chose to honor those members of my family who have suffered from the cold. Especially those who fought in the war. My grandfather especially remembered with pain how General Antonescu sewed his pockets while he was at the front so that he could not put his hands in his pockets. And at over 90 years old he remembered this annoyance. I lit candles the color of fire for them so that they would have warmth and so that I would not repeat their suffering. I live in the country and the cold really bothers me in the winter. I wish this would change and that I would no longer suffer from the cold.

Day 2 - I listened to the first meditation with the same sense of peace and calm, and the second one started to bore me. It seems excessively long at over 50 minutes, but I listened to it until the end.

I followed yesterday's trend and today I lit white and pink candles for all the women who felt abandoned - some had their husbands go off to war, others had their parents die or were adopted. I too have felt this wound a lot for many years of my life and I want not to repeat the suffering of my predecessors:

Day 3 - I followed the first meditation with peace and calm, without any special moods.

Today I lit a candle for my grandmother who had a house lacking comfort without the possibility of taking a bath as a woman should, a situation that I repeat myself. The candle burned only half and went out. I decided to look for solutions more intensely and leave this unpleasantness to my grandmother.

The muscle test shows me that I am ready to move on to the third eye chakra. I did not encounter any challenges with the throat chakra. Last week and this week went very well with money, I also took the step towards reconciliation with my father although I do not feel much energy from him towards me after this step. I listened to the advice of the books about family constellations and I took the step towards reconciliation.

Geo

Week 17 - February 21, 2025 - Healing the Heart Chakra

 

I started the day thinking about last week, a tough and difficult week for me, with many painful events that I wrote about here. I tried to listen to one of the meditations for healing the heart chakra in the morning, but I was interrupted halfway through and gave up. Anyway, I listened to it more than I had to because I don't like to give up. I was exhausted, in no mood, with a state of calm, but without feeling the meditation too deeply. I was listening to it just so that this week would come to an end. At the section where I had to think about a situation far from me, I got a slight irritation because that's what the solar plexus chakra meditation required and I was thinking that I didn't feel like going through last week's images again - I wanted something new and I didn't know what.

Meanwhile, during the day I received the ordered books on the topic of family constellations and I chose Mark Wolynn's book "Your Story Began Long Ago - How to Heal Inherited Family Traumas". After half of the book read and a chosen trauma to work on, I decided to resume the meditations for the heart chakra because now everything made sense and I saw the natural continuation of last week.

I chose these two meditations from here and here. The first is a guided meditation with imagining a situation and the second one with Reiki energy.

Day 1

Meditation 1 - I listened to the meditation calmly and peacefully, with joy even. I chose a situation from my life in which I resume the financial patterns of my paternal grandmother while reading Mark's book. The meditation is perfect for the constellation situation because half of it is just music, so perfect for having a conversation with a specific person. I thanked my grandmother for everything she gave me and, as the author shows us in the book, I told her that I choose to leave with her all the elements of struggle and frustration that I face like her. Every day I will choose a different work situation. Now these meditations have their place and purpose.

Meditation 2 - I listened to it with a state of calm and peace, I felt charged with energy. During the session, I received information related to the pattern in the family constellations that I need to heal tomorrow with the help of the first meditation - namely my maternal grandmother's fear of her husband not coming home every time he leaves, given the fact that he was away at war. I saw Archangel Raphael enveloped in a very intense green light, he caressed my head. His palms were very large, disproportionate to the rest of his body.

February 18 - I postponed the meditations. I spent the day creating, with my mother's help, a picture of our family, with relatives long dead, with traumas, deaths in war, abandonments, single women and children who left us at a young age. The last three generations before me have a very high trauma burden. There is hardly a member of my family who has not suffered beyond the limit of imagining. I was impressed by so much suffering. I read about the massacre at Cotul Donului where over 200,000 Romanian soldiers died, including my ancestors. A lot of sadness and suffering. I'm still reading, trying to identify my family ties and the suffering that I involuntarily took over from some of them. I also spoke to my father on the phone after 8 months in which I didn't want to talk to him because it upset me so much. It was good for me to reconnect with him, but I didn't feel any strong energy transmitted to me from him. He's a weak man, but breaking up with him doesn't serve me any good. I think he learned his lesson. This time I told him everything I think because last time his message shocked me and I didn't succeed. We'll maintain a civilized relationship and that's it.

February 19 - I started a campaign to honor those who have passed away among us with my mother, aunt, cousin and my brother's fiancée. Each one, according to their feelings, lit more or less candles and talked to their loved ones, thanking them for what I had taken from them. I talked to my grandmothers and all my relatives who suffered as a result of the war, I thanked them for everything they offered me and I told them that I was leaving the struggle and suffering that did not belong to me to them. I felt like a chapter was ending. I lit 9 candles that symbolized the end of the cycle of struggle and suffering. My mother and aunt lit two each, my brother's fiancée lit 6 and my cousin felt like lighting just one for a new beginning. We synchronized and complemented each other very well.

February 20th Day 2 - I resumed the meditations. Meditation 2 - I listened to it in peace, slightly absent at the beginning, but with a state of peace and positivity.

Day 3 - Meditation 2 - I watched it in peace, with a good state of joy and satisfaction until the end when I heard the phrase that this is a magical universe, full of love, a phrase that I do not completely agree with. Maybe I will one day, but not today. Meditation 1 - state of peace and peace, slight boredom because these meditations they seem too long and the commercials get on my nerves when they come on and ruin the whole atmosphere.

Intuition and then the kinesiology test show me that I can move on to the throat chakra.

Geo

Week 10 - February 16, 2025 - Healing the Solar Plexus Chakra

 

I chose to take a break for a few days after the sacral chakra because I was exhausted. I said I was going to rest for a weekend. It turned out to be a terrible weekend, two of our dogs died on February 9th in the morning after a strange incident in which I believe strong negative energies were involved after they ran after a strange dog around 11:30-00 PM and came into contact with it between the trees in a fence where in 2 seconds there was complete silence; the third one was sick, the husband with him in the hospital for a few hours, then I was left alone because the husband left for Bucharest for a week (his boss didn't think our problem at home was too important) and on the same day my mother came to visit us, a good time to connect with her.

I used these two meditations here and here, one Reiki and the other with binaural tones, affirmations and sound therapy with Tibetan bowls.

Day 1 - I was sad during the entire Reiki meditation, maybe also because of the recent events. I saw Archangel Uriel on my right, holding me in his arms and protecting me like a small child. And during the second meditation I felt sadness and anger when saying the phrases that I trust that everything that happens to me is for my good and for my evolution. I keep remembering the movie Matrix where people were exploited for energy production by machines and were made to live in a simulation where they were provoked certain energy-generating emotions, the strongest being fear and unfulfilled desires. I feel anger because that is how I feel about the world I live in. Everything against me and everything made to exploit me; I don't trust that everything is for my good.

Day 2 - in the morning a new dog came to us, very large, about 20 cm taller than our biggest dog, a kind of shepherd, beautiful, black and white, gentle, with a broken chain around his neck. He explored the whole area for about 3 hours, rested in our dogs' cages for about an hour, without fear of our dogs, then he explored everywhere again, especially where our sick dogs had walked before they died two days before, then he left. I did the meditations in the evening with the thought of him to some extent, calmer, more confident in the affirmations, but sad in the affirmation "I am in the flow of life". I think the dog came to cleanse negative energies from us because he completely disappeared in the evening. I would have liked him to stay. He didn't eat or drink anything although he passed by the box with our dogs' granules. I had even found a name for him - Max. We'll see what happens tomorrow.

I'm adding additional information that I think is related to my feelings about Schmann resonance:

This is how it looks on February 8-9, the increased intensity starts at 5 pm Romanian time - at the time our dogs were hit by something strange in the fence (something very strongly negatively charged that they died 6 hours later) the intensity was very high:

The situation continues in the following days - this image is from February 11:

This one from February 12th, it is observed that the intensity starts to increase again at 6 pm on February 12th - so another series of energetic activations and strange/special events follow:

Day 3, February 12 - meditation 1 - just before the meditation I put a little too much wood in the stove and I sat for about 15 minutes stressed that they would catch fire a little too much. I felt my fear of fires again - I felt my solar plexus ache and I tried to clear this inexplicable fear for me. It is probably something from another life, a fear that paralyzes me especially in the summer when the surrounding vegetation is dry. An exhausting fear for me that keeps me constantly on the alert. I don't know if I have cured it, but I will try again tomorrow. I felt the Archangel holding me in his fatherly arms and I was bigger than yesterday as if yesterday I had been a miniature being and today a normal one.

Meditation 2 - I started the meditation with images of panic related to fires or fire, then I realized that I was standing with my fists clenched in an attack/defense position, a position in which I saw my father sleeping. It is a position in which you show that you do not feel safe. During the meditation I noticed new phrases and new statements that I had never heard before as if they had not even been spoken - I was probably not on the frequency to perceive them.

February 13 - Day 4

Today the Schumann resonance went crazy again after about 12 hours of break:

Meditation 1 - the Reiki one - for almost half the duration I felt anger towards my father and the girl is a situation in which she wrongly offended my husband like a coward without having the courage to tell him to his face that he took me as his confidant. In addition, he told me about his intimate life with my mother and to some extent accused my husband of all his unfulfillments, this after a life of misery and disorder. Towards the end of the meditation I released these negative feelings.

Meditation 2 - I started again with bad thoughts related to my father, but I was interrupted from the meditation and from the string of negative thoughts after about 5 minutes. I resumed the meditation with a better state of peace. I visualized the chakra as small as a tennis ball and very dense, but it relaxed along the way. Three quarters of the meditation I let myself be carried away by the thought of my self of over a few years that the meditation talks about. I took great pleasure in imagining myself in a beautiful setting, confident in myself and surrounded only by joy and everything that I desire now. I didn't even realize when the meditation ended with the thought of those wonderful images.

Day 5- February 14

Meditation 1 - I started it in a state of annoyance, I didn't feel like it. I wanted to watch a movie. I stopped after the first 10 minutes and watched the movie. I resumed it after an hour in a better, calmer state. About halfway through it seemed annoyingly long again, but I listened to it carefully.

Meditation 2 - annoyance at the beginning and here because it seemed like a meditation too long. Halfway through, I felt helpless and hopeless because I couldn't imagine how all the things in my life that I didn't like could be arranged optimally for myself and for other people involved. This state remained with me until the end of the meditation.

Day 6 - February 15 - I watched both meditations with a much better state of calm and peace. Both, especially the first one, seemed very short to me. Totally opposite to yesterday. The only sentence that I didn't fully believe was the one related to the fact that all my experiences are beneficial to me.

Today was the first day out of all the chaos of the last few days when I felt like listening to another meditation compared to the two standards, namely a silent meditation of grounding the energy received in the solar plexus chakra.

The Schumann resonance in the last 24 hours is in a state of peace and tranquility...for now:

When I was saying that I was fine and at peace, I came across an ad on Facebook in which someone was desperately looking for owners for some dogs from another county far from me who were going to be euthanized because the law says that within 2 weeks of capture, if they are not claimed, this is their fate. God, what a world we live in, what misery and suffering!!! How evil people are! Especially since the post also said that those souls also suffered sterilization in the shelter. How could you catch them and kill them so easily? We are a species of garbage. I am ashamed to be human. Do we have the right to kill them? I was overcome with tears and I cried for those souls, but also for my dogs who died a week ago and whom I did not mourn enough.

Day 7 - During the first meditation I fell asleep halfway through, I was in a good mood. The second time I listened in silence and peace, but I'm still not convinced by the statement "Everything that happens to me is for my highest good". I don't see the point of so much suffering and I don't understand what else I could learn from it. To stop getting attached to the beings around me? To go through life without caring about those around me? I really can't understand what this world and this life wants from me. I'm tired and fed up with all the suffering and misery here, and the idea that someone is controlling and manipulating me. Am I healed? Who knows? The muscle test shows me that I can move on to the heart chakra. Is there an even harder week ahead? We'll see. I'm glad I left that behind because it was very ugly and painful.

I also discovered something during this period - Bert Hellinger's familiar constellation method. I ordered books and from Monday, February 17th I'm starting to study and heal there too. There are many patterns in my life that I have from my ancestors and I don't want them anymore (the constant struggle for money, being alone with my husband always looking for money, an ugly and unkempt house, etc.). It's a new area and I'm willing to delve deeper into it. I want a drastic change. I'm tired of ugliness, misery, struggle, hardship, suffering. I want to be free...I'm coming back with the heart chakra...

Geo

Week of January 31 - February 6, 2025 - Sacral Chakra Healing

 

I admit from the start that I feel that this is my chakra most affected by trauma. I expect the worst during the 7 days. I will use this Reiki meditation and this healing and unblocking meditation. Let's see what happens...

Day 1 - I started the day with 2 silent meditations from Mon Aly to cleanse curses and negative energies. It all started with the Facebook page of one of my cousins ​​who has big problems with her parents (she is rejected and slandered a lot by them) and her posts betray a lot of suffering. And I sat and thought. My paternal grandparents did a lot of harm, including convincing the entire family to give false testimony against a poor woman who got pregnant by one of my uncles and gave birth to a daughter about 40 years ago. My cousin has not been recognized in the family even to this day and I sat and thought that each of my grandmother's sons has at least one daughter. Each of these daughters has problems - me with money and my parents, my cousin who I was talking about with her parents, another with a relationship, she separated from her husband and is raising 2 children alone... the cousin I don't know was rejected by her father (my uncle) and thrown out of the family and a fifth is cold and distant and we don't know much about her because she doesn't really let anyone into her life, the sixth is fighting with her sister. I remembered that there are a lot of negative energies floating around in our family and they need to be cleaned. I would like all of our cousins ​​to meet at once and work together on cleaning, but apart from me I don't know how open the others are to something like that. I'm doing what I can alone for now.

After the two sessions above, I decided to bravely set off with the first meditation for the sacral chakra. I repeat, I expected the worst... the climax was an extraordinary meditation, completely the opposite of what I expected. During the entire meditation, I was enveloped in an orange light, I visualized oranges, I had an extraordinarily pleasant state of peace and joy. I saw Archangel Chamuel enveloped in pink, orange and purple colors and I felt like taking him in my arms like a child. That's how I visualized myself. Small like a child holding an older brother in his arms. I could only reach his chest. What's really nice is that when I looked for pictures of Chamuel on the internet after the meditation, I saw him exactly like that in my mind - in pink and purple. It seemed extraordinary to me. I visualized the sacral chakra as small, the size of a walnut, but very fluffy, like a golf ball wrapped in extra fluff and fluff. It gave me a state of peace, joy and cheerfulness at the same time. I had absolutely no negative state. Maybe just a slight dizziness, but very slight.

During the second meditation I saw my chakra like a lace mill that moved and grew with each rotation, but at some point as I was saying the affirmations it turned into a compact orange sphere and dirty with a black paint that seemed to keep springing from its surface. Only towards the end did it clear of the blackness and the orange color began to be very slightly visible. For most of the meditation it was dirty, completely black.

Towards the evening I received a project with 3 digits in euros. Things are moving well.

Day 2 - I'm trying to find out details about the fifth cousin I was talking about yesterday, maybe I can at least see her through a photo. My family gave me a name and a phone number, I found out that she's about 2-3 years older than me, but no one had the courage to call her. I don't think I have either, but I keep thinking about her. I don't know why. She grew up far from her family, with an adoptive father and for a while she even spent time in an orphanage when she was very little. What fate! And all because my grandmother decided that she had no place in our family because she would ruin the life of my uncle, who was a student at the military school at the time. My uncle didn't have any more children after that and adopted a boy with whom he had many problems. And because my grandmother decided like that, they all gave false testimony in court against the woman who is her mother... and hence many problems in the family - my mother lost a child before me, she didn't get pregnant again for a year. And the other uncles and aunts weren't spared for the harm they did. I don't know why I keep thinking about that cousin. We'll see if life ever brings us together. I feel like she was wronged a lot and chose to live some hard lessons by choosing our family to be born.

Let's see today's meditation. I'm only doing the second one because the first one went very well, I'm not doing it again for now.

Towards evening...

I feel a pressing need to get in touch with my cousin who was banished from the family and ask for her forgiveness. I'll see if I can find her and if I have the courage. In meditation, I saw her chakra as a dull ball of orange light, the size of a beach ball. She always emanated a pale, but constant and dull light. It's still something compared to yesterday's image.

I found all the details of my cousin - name, phone number, Facebook account, Whatsapp. I decide that it is better (and the muscle test confirms my choice) not to disturb his life. I listen to a meditation for healing the karma of the family, one for healing the family line on the mother's side and another on the father's. I feel calmer and more at peace. It is not good to stir up trouble and leave things as they are on the physical plane. Clean as possible on the energetic plane and that's it.

Day 3 - I saw myself bent forward as if someone had hit me in the stomach; I saw the chakra the size of an apple, pale orange, very hard, very strong, with the texture of a billiard ball and it hurt where I felt it like a weight. As if someone had hit me in the stomach with it, that's why I was bent over. And when in the meditation it was said that the chakra emanates light, my chakra opened, it had a hinged door but nothing came out from inside, it was empty inside. At some point during the meditation that hard ball fell to the ground and in its place orange light began to radiate from a point, quite pleasant and the ball rolled on the ground and fell into a hole like a well in the ground. I listen to the statements with some indifference - I don't feel distrust, but I don't feel any particular excitement either.

Today I did a past life regression meditation to understand what was blocking me from attracting money. Here are the details. I saw myself as a Roman gladiator in the year 300. I was fighting and killing for money. I was given a bag of gold to kill a woman. She was dressed in white and I killed her from behind like a coward. I then saw myself behind bars and in old age a wandering beggar. I did a theta cleansing session on this topic. Not with great results.

Day 4 - I visualize the chakra as a pale orange beach ball radiating light about 10 cm around. It's better than yesterday. I receive the affirmations with the same indifference.

Day 5 - During the day I followed another meditation for fulfilling desires, healing the chakras. I followed the meditation for the sacral chakra no. 2 with a much better state of mind, joy and peace. I did not follow meditation no. 1 from the first day because it had a positive result from the beginning. I visualized the chakra as a beautiful, intense orange sphere of light, as large as the width of my pelvis and radiating pulsating orange light outward. I received the affirmations with much more confidence and joy.

Day 6 - I am starting to lose my patience. I am financially blocked again. Again the sources of my abundance are closing - why? Am I not grateful enough? Am I not giving enough to others? I'm tired of being grateful for little and giving to others where I don't have enough. I pray... I watched the meditation with a state of boredom and slight annoyance. The affirmations in particular. I saw the chakra like yesterday, big and bright, maybe only in a more intense and reddish orange. Why do I have to fight so much to have what I want? Why years of work? Why wasted money on courses and programs? Why wasted time for almost nothing? I'm tired. I wonder how much longer I have to fight? I really feel like in the movie Matrix where people were used as energy sources for computers and the emotions that produced the most energy were fear and desires - how is it with money in my case. I'm tired of being satisfied with nothing. The idea of ​​the matrix gives me terrible depression because it's all so plausible. I want a good and abundant life. I wonder how much longer I have to work, heal all the shit from other lives or from the idiots of my race? We'll see tomorrow. I'm not giving up yet, I'm not like that, but I'm starting to get really bored...and...

I receive an email newsletter from Isabela Georgescu that talks about the limiting program "I have no choice" and about all the suffering that comes with resignation when you're forced as a child to always do what adults tell you to do. I'm doing a Theta session and for that, for a slightly better state of mind. I feel like I can still see some hope. Here are the details...

I'm also following a Mon Aly session to heal the wound of abandonment and cleanse negative energy. I feel like I'm in a quagmire that I don't know how to get out of and I'm tired of fighting. Done!!!!!

Day 7 - I listened to the meditation in silence and in peace. The same goes for the affirmations. No distrust or anger. Just peace and that's it. I saw my chakra bright and twice as big as yesterday.

I'm ready to tackle the solar plexus. It was an intense, interesting journey and less painful than I expected.

We'll see what happens tomorrow. For now, that's enough...

Geo