April 4, 2023 - I have to eat everything off my plate

 

In the morning, the child in me cried out for help. As a child and then as a teenager in high school, I was forced to eat much more than I could handle. I was always ashamed and afraid to leave food on my plate. When I got married, I used to give my husband the leftovers so that my plate would be empty. In high school, I wasn't allowed to leave the house in the morning unless I ate everything. I would leave with a slice of bread in my hand and eat it on the street because I couldn't bear to throw it away. And yes, I was always a little overweight, I had a hard time finding clothes I liked, and my mother never stopped telling me that I should eat less and lose weight. Good people, do you hear and see each other? You stuff me like a turkey, I eat until I'm full of shame and fear and then you tell me I'm fat... that's it, today this madness stops...

In the morning I was eating a bowl of soup, I had about 2 cm left on my bottom, I wasn't hungry anymore and I caught myself forcing myself to finish it off my plate... and then I said to myself, let me get this crap out of my head...

I got up and tested the program "I have to eat everything off my plate". Of course it came out positive.

I replaced it with

"It's okay to leave food on my plate"

"I'm safe to leave food on my plate"

I recovered the fragments of my soul, I sent love to the child in the womb (it's possible that the mother also ate more than necessary when she was pregnant, I don't know, but I made it happen), I cleaned the fluctuating memories and I healed the wounded soul.

Okay, it's okay to leave food on my plate. Nobody dies if I throw it away or put it back in the pot.

Time to clean up all this 40-year-old crap!

Update 06/19/2023 - the cleaning worked. I don't feel guilty about leaving food on my plate anymore. I left a quarter of a plate on the table overnight and it didn't bother me...

April 3, 2023 - impressions from DNA Advanced with Georgeta Sultan

 

Between March 31 and April 2, I was happy to participate in the advanced course taught by Georgeta Sultan. A correct choice given Georgeta's experience and simple, concise and clear working style. Although quite a lot of time was allocated from the course duration to individual work with the participants, there was enough time to go through the entire list of exercises. I worked relaxed, in a pleasant style. I felt supported to speak, to get involved in discussions, I received information and help where necessary.

The first day was scheduled between 5 and 9 p.m. and we worked on the following exercises:

- Meditation for sending unconditional love to the child in the womb, with the integration of this action into the main command for changing limiting programs

- Unloading feelings

- Meditation for healing the wounded soul, with its integration into the main command for changing limiting programs

Day 2 - between 11 and 17, we worked on:

- Dream analysis with work on cleaning limiting programs, unloading feelings, healing the wounded soul and sending love to the child in the womb, on the concrete situations raised by the participants

- Unloading feelings

- Procedure for eliminating fluctuating memories, with its integration into the main command for cleaning limiting programs

- Resentment work session, with examples and multiple digging sessions

Day 3 - between 11 and 17:

- Concrete work session on a student, digging, program replacement, downloading feelings, healing the wounded soul, eliminating fluctuating memories, healing the child in the womb, example of a concrete work session with all the related steps

- Discussions about the planes of existence from 1 to 5, with testing the limiting programs related to planes 4 and 5, cleaning them and downloading the programs in a positive form

- Feelings downloading sessions

- Discussion with a person who is no longer on our plane, in pairs

- Communication with the higher self

- Manifestation meditation

- Practical digging process in pairs

The list is quite consistent and despite this, each of the elements on the list was worked on lightly and efficiently.

I received many concrete examples during the course, the situations worked on were very easy to understand and apply practically. The emotional release sessions were spread out over the course, which made them much more enjoyable than a single, much longer session as I had expected. I worked on many concrete digging sessions that anticipate the level 3 Dig Deeper course, a course that I will also attend with Georgeta at the end of April.

What I was left with after the course: I feel like I have much more energy. As I clear limiting programs, I feel like my energy level is increasing. I feel better and better in my environment, in my body, in my life, I am increasingly positive, more optimistic about the future. I refined my working techniques, I added to the initial program clearing order the section of sending unconditional love to the child in the womb, clearing fluctuating memories, healing the soul, all of which were applied concretely to the cleared programs. I had added the part about recovering and purifying soul fragments after the "Wealth and Abundance" course with Ela Popescu.

What will I do next?

I am focusing on programs related to my inability to ask and receive, for fear of appearing weak and unable to handle myself, this is my first priority. Then I plan to create a session of unloading feelings based on the list suggested by David Hawkins in the book "Power vs. Force". After...we will see at the right time what else appears...

Thank you, Georgeta! It was an extremely useful and enjoyable course.

March 31, 2023 - I'm working on a series of 3 R's - Rejection, Resentment, Regrets

 

Between Delia's Ancestors Series which is every night at 9pm and the Advanced DNA course which starts today with Georgeta Sultan, I feel the need to revisit a topic that I put in my diary about a week ago. It caught my attention in the Theta Basics book, section 3R, and I started writing down a few ideas in my diary. From a few ideas, I ended up with 4 full pages.

During a break from working in the garden, I feel the need to record and listen to this cleansing.

Rejection

I identify 2 people who feel like I'm rejecting myself - my father who wanted me to be a boy and is now disappointed in me professionally (he wished he could still be proud of me as a corporate manager, he doesn't understand my choices and every time someone asks him he talks about my glorious past, not my current achievements) and my paternal grandmother, his mother who always wanted boys, didn't like girls. I didn't feel much affection from her.

I replace the programs "I am rejected by my father" and "I am rejected by my grandmother Aurica" ​​with the programs "I accept myself" and "I understand what it means to live without being rejected"

Resentment

I make a list of people I have resentments against...a consistent list comes out - about 30 people, parents, relatives, friends, bosses, colleagues...

I clean up the resentments against everyone and replace them with "I eliminate resentment" and "I understand what it means to live without resentment"

Regret

I make a list "I regret that..." (it comes out no less than 2 full pages, I probably would have found more if I had thought about it, I will resume the exercise another time) and ask for the cleansing of these regrets, each specific situation in turn.

I replace it with "I am free from regrets" and "I understand what it means to live without regrets"

I notice that during meditation I sigh many times, especially when I name the more important regrets.

I feel better, calm, peaceful and ready to start the Advanced Theta course in the afternoon.

Stage 2, baby!! By the end of the year I have set myself the goal of reaching DNA 3. I have the first 4 stages scheduled for now, up to and including "You and the Creator". I am waiting for them all with energy and impatience...

March 27, 2023 - Ancestors Series - Day 1, a golden evening for me in the presence of beings from another area of ​​the Universe

 

Last night was Evening 1 of the Theta Ancestors Series led by Delia Turcan. I entered Zoom without expectations, curious to see what was coming. We were told that we would be working with our ancestors much more distantly, far beyond the 7th generation that is active in each of us. The 10 evenings with our ancestors come after the Sarmizegetusa Retreat, a useful detail because Delia had already managed to accumulate useful information for us during the retreat.

We started with the Hyperborean Heritage Activation Meditation, a portion of our DNA that is different from what is activated in the basic course and which is visualized as small pyramids. The meditation lasted about 20 minutes, during which I saw a lot of gold. A giant warrior with a sword in his hand next to rows of small gold pyramids, a shower of gold and sparks of gold falling on me and entering my body along with hundreds of small transparent gold pyramids that gathered on top of each other and in my palms. A very pleasant experience for me because I am a big fan of this metal. Gold gives me a special state of mind - even my favorite glasses have gold designs on them and the cutlery I eat with, although inauthentic and slightly kitsch, is still gold. Fancy, fancy, something else? I don't know... I like gold and yesterday I enjoyed a shower of gold during the meditation to activate the Hyperborean heritage. After the meditation I felt a slight pressure on my forehead and temples and a slight headache. Nothing unpleasant. Others slept, others saw entities similar to the Dacian wolf. I think it manifested differently in each of us. For me there was a lot of gold. The activation will be every evening. Let's see what I visualize tonight.

There were about 30 people present and I felt a warm and pleasant atmosphere under Delia's guidance. The next stage was a cleansing session related to this nation we are part of. Each one asked for the Creator's guidance for ideas. We can't cleanse the entire nation obviously, but we cleansed each of us our portion and the effect is exponential with each person who works in this direction.

We cleansed energetic and bioenergetic attacks, our personal energy exchange contracts with other countries, obedience contracts to authorities, self-pity and nation-consciousness and the energies of war that are already above us.

We also downloaded feelings such as the ability to know when and how to say NO, the state of peace, the state of belonging to a rich nation.

Towards the end, a few people offered to work individually. The whole thing lasted an hour and a half. 90 intense, interesting and largely revealing minutes. The energy of the group is strong and I think live participation is important. I don't know if recording the session still has the same impact. Friday will be interesting for me because I also have the first day of the Advanced DNA course until 9 pm.

I'm glad I chose to participate. I feel like I'm doing something important for others, not just for myself. I felt respect for my people and gratitude that I could help, no matter how little...ah, you'll laugh, but I also unlocked something in terms of money...after a month and a half of working continuously without results, last night I woke up with some unexpected income...interesting...it must be the feeling of belonging to a rich, unburdened nation :)

I'm looking forward to tonight's session...

Thank you very much, Delia!

March 27, 2023 - retrospective and a new program with Delia Turcan from March 27, today

 

After completing the Theta course from February 3-5, the main topic I wanted to work on was "Money". I was not happy with what I was earning and I worked no less than 263 programs - counted :)

After a month and a half of intense, daily work with money-related programs, I realized that the problem was the peak! elsewhere... specifically the loss of femininity and the attitude of gentleness, calmness and gratitude that I had, but which my desperation for money chased away. I feel tired and I feel the need to completely change the topic I was working on... and the opportunity has already arisen. I have been subscribed to Delia Turcan's newsletter for about two weeks, I follow her with interest, I work on the materials I received, I want things to settle down and to participate in her DNA 3 course in December... until then, a material she sends me catches my attention, a 10-day Theta session about ancestors. It comes at exactly the right time. I was fed up with money and my inability to ask and receive with grace and gratitude. I still didn't feel like I could "attack" this problem. The material about ancestors comes at a perfect time. It makes me think about something else. It helps me not to give up on the intense work I started, but it takes me in a completely different direction...I think not by chance.

Here's what Delia offers (both online and live from Sarmizegetusa):

"A series from the Personal Development Academy, 20 days of work in which we will address:

-the secrets of the Dacian and Hyperborean ancestors and what we can get from there

-our past lives in this area and karmic cleansing, as well as activations of the DNA gifts from them

-the current situation in Romania, respectively the nation and what we can change about it

- releasing the need for belonging to the nation"

Along with the 10 Theta days, there will be 10 Access Consciousness, from April 9th. I'm also attracted to this theme, but I want to delve deeper into Theta first. And I don't have much money either :( Since I've been working on money-related programs, I've been so miserable with money that I had to ask my husband for the 10-day Theta series. I know I still have a lot of "garbage" to get rid of. I don't ask easily, I feel like a useless parasite in this world when I ask and I'm not able to handle it... I know I'm thinking nonsense and that's what I actually have to work on... I don't know how to ask and receive with grace and gratitude because of the education I received in childhood. I'm tired as I said and I don't feel like working on this... for now. Delia's program is good for me because it gets me out of my state.

Returning to the ancestors... I'm looking forward to tonight's session. The Dacians got me interested about 3 years ago when I was watching Daniel Roxin's videos with interest and I also bought very well-documented materials written by Dan Oltean. I was also very attracted to the idea that the Hyperboreans may have been giants. I have researched the topic for a long time, but I have not found many credible sources. It will be interesting to see Delia's perspective. I have also searched for the Belagini laws for a long time, I have found something, I do not know if they were authentic. For a while I also read Niculina Gheorghita's materials inspired by the ancestors...now I am not so passionate about the Dacians themselves, but I am curious to see what Delia has to say and what I can use for my personal development.

About 3 years ago I was at the history museum in Piatra Neamt and I felt a strange attraction and a state of respect and shyness around the vessels from Cucuteni. The picture from Sarmizegetusa sent by Delia on the Whatsapp group did not impress me as much as I expected. I would have liked to feel something, an attraction of some kind, but not really...why? I will find out...maybe I would feel differently there. I have not visited the location never...yet...but I was outraged a few years ago when I found out how the centuries-old beech trees there are being cut down, trees that represent our roots with the earth and with our ancestors...

That being said, I am completely open to what the experience has to offer, I don't think it came my way by chance and I will come back tomorrow with impressions about today's session at 9 pm...

March 24, 2023 - wildfire attracted by my fears, I work on programs about courage and safety

 

For 4 years we have been living in a very beautiful area, full of vegetation, on the edge of a village, between plum and apple orchards. Next to our land grows a forest of about 4000 sq m, a forest near which unfortunately the neighbors periodically throw garbage.

Since we moved here I have always been afraid of fires... and the fear materializes. In 2020 the first fire, about 300m from us, extinguished by my husband and a few neighbors - they burned trees and plant debris from a vineyard that someone had cleaned, with flames over 6 meters high. In 2022, the second, about 200m from us, burned dry grass on a portion of about 200 sq m, but the wind was blowing towards us and brought soot and ash into the yard. I was really scared, my husband went out with a neighbor again, but my biggest fear at that time was "what do I do if it happens when I'm home alone?" And, voila! 2 days ago it happened. I was talking to my mom on the phone, I went out into the yard and saw smoke above us, at the end of the forest. This time about 100m away from us. I ran there, someone had set fire to the garbage at the end of the forest, the forest had already caught fire on a portion of about 50 square meters. My heart stopped when I saw it. The forest was full of dry wood, fallen branches and leaves. I saw the flames a few meters away from me. I ran home, called the fire department, they were here in 20 minutes, everything was resolved. But... I lived for half an hour of intense, terrible fear that I felt the energy drain from my body. Things were in my favor - the wind was not blowing, there were also many wet leaves in the woods, winter had just passed, it was not a drought. I had never seen this before... I could only see the flames approaching our house, although they were not yet big, only as big as me... the firefighters told me not to be so scared.

The fear of "enjoying" a fire alone at home was too strong. My legs were shaking, I was like after a fight, exhausted and without energy. I could hardly eat towards the evening.

But I worked in the evening, sitting in bed, programs related to courage and safety, plus responsible neighbors:

"I feel safe here"

"I am surrounded by responsible people and neighbors"

I remember these now because I worked on them without writing them down.

In the morning I woke up much better. The worst part, around 10-11 o'clock I saw smoke again in the orchards above us, much higher this time and I could see what I was feeling. NOTHING! No fear whatsoever...my husband went up to see what it was, it was much higher than us and after about 30 minutes it disappeared, probably someone was burning garbage. The fact that I was no longer afraid and didn't flinch like I usually do is a good sign. Most likely, I won't have the opportunity to see fires again because I'm no longer afraid of them and I don't attract them into my life anymore...

March 23, 2023 - a major awareness!! related to money and relationships during a meditation organized by Georgeta Sultan

 

After hundreds of programs worked, my financial situation should have already improved considerably. The worst thing is, it's even more miserable than when I started. I can barely scrape together a few euros to pay for my Netflix subscription. Embarrassing!

On March 21st, I'm participating in Georgeta Sultan's Theta meditation for the New Moon. I'll be taking the Advanced, Dig Deeper, and "You and the Creator" courses with her, so it's a good opportunity to participate and get to know her. The meditation is extraordinary, it lasts an hour and a half. The phenomenal feeling of being in the Theta state for that long.

Part of the meditation is unloading the feeling of forgiveness and then calling in front of your mind's eye, one by one, three people who have wronged us and to whom we must ask for forgiveness, not the other way around. The idea is that we create our lives through our thoughts, and if those people have wronged us, something in us caused them to behave the way they did.

One of the people is my husband. I ask him with all my heart for forgiveness for the sometimes tense situation between us, the situation generated by the fact that I give too much time to the child and not enough to him as a husband. He is a good and patient man, I understand him but sometimes I can't help myself. The discussions between us on this topic sometimes become tense.

The day after the meditation, with a heavy heart, I feel the need to tell him what I did in the meditation and to ask for forgiveness face to face. We talk for about 2-3 hours continuously, during which I have a major awareness related to money. I realize why I am doing so poorly. I am so attached to money and my energy has become so masculine in my desperation that I have reached the situation where I don't even have money and my relationship with my husband is tense.

3 years ago a friend sent me an article about the importance of a dress for a woman's energy. My relationship with my husband was good, but without artifice. I often felt that the animals in the yard received more affection than I did. I was a partner to him and that was it, not a feminine wife with complementary energy. He respected me and cared for me within the limits of a partnership. He helped me, took care of the house and the child, but as I said, without that dose of passion present in some couples. Until I received the article with the dress, I thought that was his nature and that was it. I had a normal relationship in my mind.

The article with the dresses made me realize that I only have a small amount of feminine energy, that I am a partner for my husband, not a feminine wife, and I decided to make a change. From that moment on, I gave up pants for good and only wore dresses. That summer was MAGICAL!!! I watched like an idiot as he followed me around the yard, as he couldn't keep his hands off me...and as I materialized money with phenomenal ease and relaxation. I was grateful for what I was receiving and my life was extraordinary. In 2 weeks I managed to collect a third of the cost of a very large bank of lithium batteries and help with their purchase in the household.

And the summer passed... and winter and the following year I came across Denise Duffield Thomas's books, books that told me about money-related blockages, about an extraordinary life as a rich person, about the easy materialization of huge sums of money, much larger than those I was used to. The idea of ​​a house on the Costa del Sol began to sprout in my mind. I started to want money, more and more money...

I was no longer satisfied, nor grateful and money started to decrease constantly from then on. I work hard, enormously, I think and implement project after project, all with potential and all of them go miserably. Because I am tense, stressed, I no longer enjoy money, I want more and more.

The more attached I am, the less I have...

And besides, my relationship with my husband has deteriorated in the last two years. That magical summer is over and yesterday my husband told me that he no longer feels feminine but like a partner in the house again. The light bulb went on!!!

The second chakra is not only the chakra of sexuality but also of money. Area 6 of the energy-informational matrix in numerology is not only of finances...but also of relationships, of sexuality. Ding! Ding! Ding! I am a partner for my husband and I lost my femininity when I decided that I was no longer satisfied with my money but wanted much more, when I forgot to relax and be grateful, when I became too masculine again.

The discussion with my husband opened my mind and I realized where I had lost my way. We decided together that it was time to make a change...not in money but in attitude. To be happy with the money he earns, to ask him with confidence, to appreciate what he does for us and to focus on the relationship, not on the money. Then my money will come...I'm sure of it. When I detach myself from this desperate desire to have money.

This morning, I received a proposal to promote one of my books for free and two of the human resources courses that I saw that someone had already signed up for. And, yes, I did everything relaxed. Today I planted parsley, carrots and potatoes in the garden and I stopped stressing about money.

I'm focusing on the relationship, on recovering the lost feminine energy and the money will come by itself :)

That's about it for now,

Geo