July 20 - water, fire, the weight of waiting

 

After 5 years of drought, our well only gave us 30 liters of water today. After the first moment of panic and the decision to do a more serious drilling in the near future, I decide to do a short meditation that also includes the need for water:

I release:

We have water no

We are short of water

We are thirsty

We have problems with water

Our water has decreased a lot in the well

We are going to die of thirst

It is very hot

It is drought

We have water for the animals no

We have water for us no

We have problems with water

Our water is abundant no

It rained a few days ago so that we will have water for the animals, we have already found a team to drill, we are in discussions and we hope to start work as soon as possible. We don't have water, but we have money to start drilling, we have a team with potential, we quickly agreed on the decision to drill as a family. Things are going well.

I resume the visualization exercises related to fire, determined to take another step forward in getting rid of fear. I focus on the fear of touching something hot (both from childhood and the image of the hot doorknob from the previous article related to fire). I realize that I am very afraid of the sound of fire, those small crackles and the smell of smoke. I release everything that comes to me intuitively related to these two elements:

I must always be attentive to the fire

I must always listen to the fire

I must always follow the fire

The fire burns me

I must always be attentive around me for the fire

The fire holds me captive

The fire does not let me be free

Because of the fire I cannot get out

Because of the fire I am not free

Fire is bad

Fire hurts me

I must stay away from the fire

The fire threatens me

The fire is threatening

I am surrounded by fire

The fire surrounds me

The sound of the fire takes my energy

The smell of the fire takes my energy

My feet get soft when I hear the sound or smell fire and smoke

The fire takes my energy

The fire destroys me

Fire is against me

I hear the sounds of fire everywhere

I smell fire everywhere

I panic at fire

I panic at signs of fire

I always expect fire to hurt me

I always expect fire to surround me

I always expect fire to attack me

I always expect fire to destroy me

It smells like smoke everywhere

I hear fire burning everywhere

I am at peace with fire no

I am balanced with fire no

I am safe with fire no

Fire is crackling and burning all the time

The crackling of fire takes my breath away

The crackling of fire drains my energy

The smell of fire takes my breath away

The smoke takes my breath away

The smell fire drains my energy

Smoke drains my energy

The smell of fire scares me

Smoke scares me

The smell of fire causes me panic

+ I download the definition of the feeling of safety from the highest plane

I feel better, I have released more of my fear. I still have to work with "Fire comes from the sky".

That one stuck in my mind from last time. It's probably related to war, bombs, airplanes.

I'll see. For now, I'm better with fire.

I feel overwhelmed again that I'm alone and I also release the following related to the weight of waiting

for loved ones, the weight of loneliness:

I always have to wait for my loved ones to come to me

I always have to wait to get something

I have to stay home and wait for your loved ones

The weight of expectations weighs on me

The waiting weighs on me

July 9, 2024 - Again about fire - barbarians destroy my village with fire

 

For three days I "fermented" and sniffed all the hills and I flinched at every wisp of smoke that appeared in the neighbors, whether as an image or a smell. I decided to do another release session. I close my eyes and think about what it is about fire that makes me feel so scared. Proof that the previous session worked, I no longer feel physically threatened, but the thought of the fire destroying my house and shelter panics me. I see flashes of images of me being in a hilly place, similar to the one I live in now, and on all the surrounding hills I see fire, a sign that the barbarians are close and heading to destroy us and plunder our village. I see myself dressed in leather clothes, with my hair braided in two tails, scared and looking at the fire on the hill with fear. I decide to release the programs:

I am afraid of fire

The fire threatens my house and belongings

I am afraid of losing my belongings and house to the fire

I see fire on the surrounding hills, the barbarians are coming towards us to set fire to us, kill us and steal from us

The fire shows that they are approaching

Bandits are attacking my village with fire

Bandits are attacking my house with fire

Bandits are destroying my house with fire

Bandits are destroying my village with fire

The fire is causing me suffering

The fire is causing my family suffering

The fire is causing my village suffering

The fire is causing my neighbors suffering

The fire is causing my people suffering

The fire is destroying my shelter

I will no longer have a home because of the fire

The fire is destroying my house

The fire is destroying my shelter

I will no longer be safe because of the fire

I am losing my shelter

Fire is threatening me

Fire is threatening

Fire is being used against me

Fire is being used against my village

Fire is being used against my family

Fire is being used against my safety

Fire is being used against my freedom

I feel guilty that I cannot protect my house from fire

I feel guilty that I cannot protect my family from fire

I feel guilty that I cannot protect the village from fire

I feel guilty that I cannot protect my shelter from fire

I feel guilty that I cannot protect my freedom from fire

I feel guilty that I cannot protect the people from fire

Fire only causes me harm

Fire causes harm to my family, my village, my house, my shelter

Fire comes from the sky

The last one doesn't really have connection, I don't know why I felt like adding it, maybe I should explore it in a future session.

After the session I feel a little more at peace, but when I get ready to leave the house, I feel the doorknob hot. It's scorching hot outside and the sun has heated the doorknob very strongly. An image suddenly comes to my mind - me in a house on fire, the doorknob hot and I can't touch it to get out of that house... clearly I still have instances related to fire to heal... to come...

July 6, 2024 - Fear of fire - I was burned at the stake as a witch

 

On the hill in front, a patch of vegetation suddenly catches fire due to a neighbor's carelessness. We watch him with binoculars as he struggles helplessly to put out the out-of-control fire, then as the firefighters come and help him. The whole experience exhausts me and even though it's 1 km away, the panic is so great that I feel the need to work on my fear of fire again, a fear I've worked on before and haven't gotten rid of yet.

I relax and visualize myself being burned at the stake centuries ago as a witch. I pull out all the programs that come to me intuitively related to this situation:

Fire is dangerous

Fire kills you

I must stay away from fire

Fire kills me

Fire destroys me

I must run away from fire

I must stay away from fire

I am afraid of fire

Fire is against me

Fire is bad

Fire destroys everything

Fire hurts me

I hate fire

I stay away from fire

Fire killed me

Fire destroyed me

Fire is against me

I must run away from fire

Fire is a danger in my life

Fire is a danger to my life

Fire hurts me

Fire hurts me

Fire burns me

Fire is a weapon against me

Fire destroys me

I am afraid of fire

Fire takes my life

Fire took my life

I must get rid of fire

I have to stay away from fire

I have to run away from fire

I don't feel completely liberated, there's still something that makes me so afraid of fire...I'll resume working with fire in another session.