July 20 - water, fire, the weight of waiting

 

After 5 years of drought, our well only gave us 30 liters of water today. After the first moment of panic and the decision to do a more serious drilling in the near future, I decide to do a short meditation that also includes the need for water:

I release:

We have water no

We are short of water

We are thirsty

We have problems with water

Our water has decreased a lot in the well

We are going to die of thirst

It is very hot

It is drought

We have water for the animals no

We have water for us no

We have problems with water

Our water is abundant no

It rained a few days ago so that we will have water for the animals, we have already found a team to drill, we are in discussions and we hope to start work as soon as possible. We don't have water, but we have money to start drilling, we have a team with potential, we quickly agreed on the decision to drill as a family. Things are going well.

I resume the visualization exercises related to fire, determined to take another step forward in getting rid of fear. I focus on the fear of touching something hot (both from childhood and the image of the hot doorknob from the previous article related to fire). I realize that I am very afraid of the sound of fire, those small crackles and the smell of smoke. I release everything that comes to me intuitively related to these two elements:

I must always be attentive to the fire

I must always listen to the fire

I must always follow the fire

The fire burns me

I must always be attentive around me for the fire

The fire holds me captive

The fire does not let me be free

Because of the fire I cannot get out

Because of the fire I am not free

Fire is bad

Fire hurts me

I must stay away from the fire

The fire threatens me

The fire is threatening

I am surrounded by fire

The fire surrounds me

The sound of the fire takes my energy

The smell of the fire takes my energy

My feet get soft when I hear the sound or smell fire and smoke

The fire takes my energy

The fire destroys me

Fire is against me

I hear the sounds of fire everywhere

I smell fire everywhere

I panic at fire

I panic at signs of fire

I always expect fire to hurt me

I always expect fire to surround me

I always expect fire to attack me

I always expect fire to destroy me

It smells like smoke everywhere

I hear fire burning everywhere

I am at peace with fire no

I am balanced with fire no

I am safe with fire no

Fire is crackling and burning all the time

The crackling of fire takes my breath away

The crackling of fire drains my energy

The smell of fire takes my breath away

The smoke takes my breath away

The smell fire drains my energy

Smoke drains my energy

The smell of fire scares me

Smoke scares me

The smell of fire causes me panic

+ I download the definition of the feeling of safety from the highest plane

I feel better, I have released more of my fear. I still have to work with "Fire comes from the sky".

That one stuck in my mind from last time. It's probably related to war, bombs, airplanes.

I'll see. For now, I'm better with fire.

I feel overwhelmed again that I'm alone and I also release the following related to the weight of waiting

for loved ones, the weight of loneliness:

I always have to wait for my loved ones to come to me

I always have to wait to get something

I have to stay home and wait for your loved ones

The weight of expectations weighs on me

The waiting weighs on me