February 15, 2023 - Depression, List of Faulty Materializations

 

I work:

I feel helpless

I'm afraid I'll be alone

I'm afraid of loneliness

The troubled state I'm in makes me make a list of all the things I've materialized in my life that are obviously like this because of blockages and preconceptions:

1. I don't earn as much as I want, I can't buy everything I want, when I want - here I have blockages with the cart, I'll leave it for later for now

2. I'm home alone for a long time - my husband often goes on trips, just like my grandfather did. I identify and work on the program "Men can earn money without leaving home". Coincidence or not, my husband's stomach is really swollen and I'm home almost all week, except for 3 hours in the city. It's not what I wanted, I hope I didn't "disorder" him, but since he has free will, I don't think I could influence him to that extent. He is with me at home...and he earns money from home too...although the result doesn't seem ideal to me

3. I am suffocated by the animals in the yard - we have 5 dogs and 9 cats. The cats are always at the door, meowing, climbing on the muddy windows, on the outdoor table that is full of mud, they do their business on the porch where we have stone on the floor and it is not closed with a door. I sometimes get depressed because of them. I want a clean, well-kept place, where it smells nice, the dirt accumulates everywhere. My husband started to make a door to the porch, but he had to go away again on business and only the assembled skeleton remained.

I work the programs:

I deserve to live in a clean, beautiful, well-kept, comfortable place where I feel good.

I deserve to have space for myself, a space where I feel good, where I can breathe freely.

The result: February 18, 2023 the door is ready, I can finally clean the porch. I admire the place with love and cook on the table that has been cleaned of mud and cat hair. I no longer feel suffocated. The porch door keeps them out for good.

4. The houses and the place where I live are ugly, unkempt

5. I am unkempt, dirty (we don't have a bathroom and running water and I miss the comfort and shower that I had in the city). It all comes from the fact that sometimes I am too tired to prepare my bathroom, although I have decent conditions for bathing. It just needs to be heated and the water brought. But when you are in a bad mood, everything goes to waste.

I think about why I am like this - because I consider that I don't deserve to make too much effort for myself. I have to work on my programs. Until then, a warm bath makes me feel better.

6. My body is ugly, deformed, saggy breasts, ugly, sparse, dry, shapeless hair

I am working on the programs on February 17:

I have beautiful, thick, healthy hair

I have a beautiful body

I have beautiful breasts

I have a flat and beautiful stomach

I am beautiful and deserve to be loved

Results - I am not physically beautiful yet, but at least I don't care so much anymore. I am OK with it. Probably, additional sessions or a deeper digging of the programs are required. The fact that I have extra kg may show the desire to protect myself from trauma. In the past, beautiful women were kidnapped and suffered. It is possible that I have some program at the genetic level. I will see later. Money is my priority...

February 14, 2023 - I work Previously Identified Programs

 

In the morning I work:

I fear failure

I deserve to be successful NO

I deserve to be prosperous NO

Only men earn money

Men earn money only away from home.

How do I work them?

I enter the theta state with the help of the steps from the meditation, I give the command to delete these programs and to write other new programs that I feel would fit in their place.

February 14, 2023 - I Watch Dubai Bling and Identify My Blockages Related to Luxury, Wealth and Rich People

 

The film attracted me in a strange way because it is not my kind of film. I prefer sci-fi movies, mysteries, comedies, not gossip and soap operas.

However, I watched it and it took me 2 days to finish it. I discover 2 pages full of limiting beliefs related to luxury, wealth, rich people. I discover that I don't feel at ease in the luxurious environment of the rich...so how can I be rich in these conditions?

Here are the beliefs I discovered while watching the series:

Rich people are arrogant.

Rich people are fussy.

Rich people are not grateful for what they have.

Rich women are arrogant.

Rich women divorce.

Rich women are fake.

Rich women are jealous.

Rich people are materialistic.

Rich people are fake.

Rich women are hard to please.

Rich women are nagging.

Rich women are gossipers.

Rich women are bad.

The rich have no real friends.

Rich women are proud.

Rich women are rude.

Rich women hurt each other.

Rich women are conceited.

Rich women have bad relationships with their partners or are single.

Rich women are spoiled.

Rich people have no real friends.

Rich people are unhappy.

Rich women are pretentious.

Rich women are shallow.

Rich women love drama.

Rich women use every opportunity to stand out.

On February 15, at the end of the series, I recorded a meditation with the modification of all these programs in a single session, a meditation that I listened to the same day.

The result... on February 23, I watched the film again, but with completely different feelings - with attention, without envy, without resentment and even with admiration for those beautiful, elegant and successful women.

I think that getting rid of envy and resentment is an important step in tuning in to the vibration of abundance and wealth. It's good, I say, let's go ahead...

February 13, 2023 - Depression, I Download Feelings (High Volume)

 

All day I read from the advanced Theta Healing book. I discover a lot of programs to work on that I write down and a lot of feelings to download that I don't seem to have - e.g. I know what it means to be loved as I am.

The list overwhelms me and amplifies the bad mood I've been carrying with me all day. There are so many. It seems to me that I will never succeed. I discover in Chapter 5 no less than 24 pages with feelings recommended to be downloaded. With all my bad mood, I decide to record myself a Theta meditation on my phone, a meditation in which to download all those feelings, plus about 3 more pages I wrote down previously.

The meditation goes on for an hour. I gather courage and decide to listen to it before bed with my headphones.

I fall asleep and wake up right before the last 10-15 feelings out of several hundred. Phenomenal.

I go to bed and wake up in the morning with a much better mood. All these busy days in which I focused only on Theta Healing really messed me up. I need a break, but I can't take it. It's not my style. I fight until the end to get what I want. I can't give up now that I have a few steps left.

I am starting a new notebook in which I will write everything I achieve in the field of theta healing.

At the beginning of it, I write the main commands learned so far in the course - energizing, scanning, releasing programs, healing, downloading feelings, manifestation. Some I didn't do in the course, but I found them in the manual I received later by courier.

Status - I am disturbed, tired, but the download of feelings gave me energy to continue. We are going forward...