After several years of intensive, daily work with myself, I am exhausted and the results are quite barely visible. I followed with dedication, determination and discipline all the programs I signed up for and which I set out to stick to. Theta healing, The Code of Emotions, meditations, Reiki, introspection sessions, guided meditations, a little yoga, mantras, gratitude, affirmations... I don't even remember them all. And a lot of money invested... in euros. Conclusion - I think nothing works because it shouldn't work. I tend to believe that the following information that I came into contact with through various means is true:
- the Matrix film series, the first and fourth in particular, show reality, they are not fiction - we are here incarnated to feed energy to some parasitic species that have taken over us and made us forget who we are and what powers we actually have. In general, Hollywood movies have the role of showing/informing what is desired or what is already implemented - they are not fiction for the most part. Going beyond the special effects, the essence of the Matrix movie is useful to research. And when you watch it, take a break and analyze the feelings you have. I can tell you a lot...
- we live in a projection/hologram of a crazy and selfish god whose only purpose is to squeeze as much energy from us as possible, especially negative. Talbot's book The Holographic Universe proves scientifically and with countless concrete, real evidence that we live in a hologram and that we use a holographic brain. A kind of Holodeck from the Star Trek movie.
- the whole creation here is out of place - for most beings to live, something else must die, possibly suffer a lot before dying. We know this, but we pretend not to notice. The burger no longer resembles the animal it comes from. And vegans are not exempt either...and plants are beings.
- our minds were given to us to drain our energy, to be controlled, to have our thoughts intercepted and influenced, to have thoughts planted in us - all with the aim of extracting the lowest quality energy possible. That's why everything we see in movies, on the news, in newspapers has the role of constantly keeping us in a state of fear. That's why we run useless thoughts all night that drain us of strength, but which don't actually benefit us at all and which we have a hard time stopping. Our mental body (see Powell's book of the same name) extends around our physical body, comes into contact with the mental bodies of others, attracting thoughts that are not ours. I don't even remember the etheric implants we have - still hard to prove, but still where do we have so many strange, heavy, useless dreams? I have only had beautiful dreams 1-2 times in my entire life. Otherwise, dreams full of problems, exhausting...
- in Matrix 4 it is clearly specified that fear and obsessive desires are the best energy-generating feelings for them. These are alien nations that also use artificial intelligence to control us. Fear is clear - we see and feel it everywhere around us - fear of death, hunger, accidents, extreme weather events, not having money, suffering. Obsessive desires are especially related to what we want and don't have - we are told that we don't have it because we don't know how to attract what we want, because we have limiting programs, because we are not on the frequency of what we want. It's our fault. Nonsense! I worked with theta thousands of limiting programs and I still don't have what I wanted from the start. And with the Code of Emotions I achieved something, but it lasted about a week. Because my desire generates energy for them. If I got what I want, I wouldn't want it so much anymore. So...stop the desire! we put our minds on pause and enter a state of calm. And so when we leave here we don't leave with anything physical. And I think some people have it precisely to keep us in desire, because they think it's possible. And who has money, doesn't have love, who has love, doesn't have a house, who has a house, doesn't have children...and so on. We keep being told that we can't have it all. Why????
- some of the creatures in this world are here to torment us, to bring us to despair, to drain us of energy...have you had even a mosquito in your house at night? Does it seem like a perfect creature created with love, meant to be loved and of some use here? And it's not alone. I can give you dozens of examples.
- this world is created for suffering - everything around is pain, sadness, the body causes us pain, this garbage of a body that we are told we must cherish as if it is from god...yes, this crazy god that keeps us in this prison. Suffering in the people around us, in the animals; suffering does not strengthen us as we are taught but makes us weak and fearful. Shall I tell you about a woman's body and the misery she goes through for a large part of this life? And the "pride" that we can give life (also in suffering of course). Nonsense. Rather the pain we cause to other people, unfortunate people we bring here against their will...
- we give our energy to all those forces we worship - gods, deities, paradeities, virgins, mothers, guides, archangels, paraarchangels, saints, angels. They all tell us that we are small, insignificant, powerless. And they all make us afraid if we don't worship them, they make us feel guilty. We will be punished if we don't light candles, if we don't give money, if we don't kneel...
- exhausted and drained of strength, we "eat" (energetically speaking) each other to recover a drop of the lost energy. Have you ever stood at a traffic light in the heat? Have you ever entered an open space in a call center where employees are constantly talking to "satisfied" customers? You've seen exhausted fathers come home from work and take out their anger and frustration on their children - I've experienced it myself for years. We're told that we choose our family to learn, that everything here is a lesson - I believe it's chosen for us for maximum suffering. And that we have to remember who we are to get out of here - we're not here to learn but to remember what we already knew. Read The Celestine Prophecies by James Redfield to learn about the 4 types of energy thieves (the bully, the interrogator, the victim and the distancer) that we all use to recharge ourselves with energy from others after our energy has been stolen.
So I decided:
- I no longer trust any saints, paragods and ultragods. To the trash, all of them. I no longer give my energy to anyone. I only trust in myself and the loved ones who are next to me, in the same cocoa as me from which we must get out together. No so-called "higher" force is here to support us in any way. We must find our strength and get out of here alone and united (that's why we are so intentionally divided). Our real Creator is not here and has given us everything we need to manage. The God we worship here, this madman who follows us to punish us for our sins is nothing but a sick, selfish and arrogant fake.
- I no longer accept any procedure in the field of spirituality, no ritual, neither church nor any so-called spiritual field - they are all energy theft. If they were good for anything I felt full of energy, charged, positive after these years of working with myself. It's not like that. I feel exhausted.
- I no longer solve anyone's karma, I no longer believe in lies of this kind. I am not guilty of fixing anything, of healing anyone's race. I have the right to enjoy, not to suffer continuously.
- I consciously choose (when the time comes) cremation because that is the only way I can immediately break away from everything that is here and leave more easily; I avoid the tunnel of light, acquaintances who pull at me to convince me to reincarnate here again and again to generate energy for parasites.
- I put my mind and useless thoughts on pause - deep breaths of at least 5 minutes with exhalation through my mouth seem to stop thoughts almost completely - they give a slight dizziness and thoughts that run wild disappear. I think we need to rely more on feelings and create with their help and not on thoughts that are manipulated from us.
- I live beautifully, helping others where I can and I enjoy what I have beautifully in my life.
- I stop all personal development programs.
Does my article seem depressing? Maybe, from the perspective of the one still involved in this "theater" in which we are all actors. Depression is the rupture between what the soul wants and what the ego insists "must be done", social, spiritual, religious norms, rules. I don't feel depressed. I wrote calmly, with determination, with relief what I think. I am at peace with myself and I have nothing left to prove, to pay, to show, I have no one left to please. It is an "immortal and cold" feeling, like in Eminescu's Luceafărul. Because Luceafărul is actually that - the superior spirit that has the overall perspective and that chooses not to be involved in the petty dramas of this world (even though I "ate up" my days with literary commentaries in high school). That state in which you look at everyone and everything with detachment.
Kisses,
Geo
