February 27, 2023 - I Ask the Creator about the Blockages, I Do the Digging Process, the Money is Still Blocked

 

I ask the Creator in meditation why my money is blocked and the unblocking process is taking so long. I started with the desire to save about $10 in fees and because of that I can't access the money for about a week because I used a new payment processor that charges me less fees.

The Creator tells me that it is OK to attend the courses I have planned, that is not the problem but the blockage - "I trust money NOT". Interesting discovery. I am working on the blockage.

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In the afternoon I create a meditation with all the money-related blockages identified in the last few days and not yet worked on:

I feel comfortable with a lot of money NO

I feel comfortable in luxury NO

Money comes hard

Money and possessions are good NO

I have to spend all the money, otherwise I will be left without it

I deserve to have a lot of money even if I work a little

To have money, the government, the Masons or other authorities must give you permission

If I earn a lot of money, I will have to pay high taxes

I feel intimidated by luxury and people with money

I easily attract wealth NO

If I have a lot of money, I will lose my family

I feel comfortable in luxury NO

I feel comfortable in abundance NO

I feel comfortable with a lot of money NO

There are many, many, more and more coming to light. I'm terrified of the state my subconscious is in, how many blockages are coming out. It sounds bad, but it's like I'm taking out the dirt from a septic tank. God, how much is coming out and it never ends. I feel helpless, hopeless.

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In the evening I start writing in my Theta notebook what I think would happen if I had a lot of money like I want so that we could all live carefree without being tied to a stressful job, with difficult clients, with obligations...to be free.

I identified the following fears and blockages:

Money brings loneliness

Money brings guilt

Money breaks up families

Money brings hardship

Money brings sadness.

God, how many keep coming out. I try to work on them, but I'm interrupted by my little one during meditation. I get angry and see myself surrounded by darkness, all the beautiful light from the seventh plane suddenly disappears. I sit quietly and wait for it to pass. I get angry not at him but at myself and the mess that keeps coming out of my subconscious. I wait for the house to be quiet again, I calm down and resume meditation.

Today, February 28th as I write this, I still have no message from the payment processor, the accounts are still being approved (although it was supposed to take 30 minutes I already have 24 hours - the last time it took 3 days and when I wrote to the customer service they told me that I had nothing given for approval - all the account data was deleted), the money still blocked - part of it has to come back from the bank from the first account where the bank did not accept external payments and the second amount to the processor's account.

I'm tired of everything going so slowly. I feel a state of anger that is hard to describe, especially at myself and the chaos inside me that blocks my wealth, peace, tranquility, well-being. Why does everything have to go so badly and hindered? Why do I have to work so hard for everything I achieve?

Anger still gives me energy to move forward...I don't give up...

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Exactly 30 seconds after I published this article I discovered in my email a message with a payment (other than the blocked ones) that I received a day earlier!! and which helps me pay for my first course which is in 3 days...I have a month until the next one, so I'm not so stressed out with the payment processor anymore.

Have I unlocked something? I think I did something good from all the programs I worked on... Thank you!!!

February 26, 2023 - I'm Working on Money-related Programs Again, Accounts Still Blocked...

 

I work:

Money is blocking me

I get blocked around money

I have money-related blockages

and

because I blocked my money trying to save a few bucks on the taxes I pay from my job...I work

Taxes are blocking me

Taxes are confusing me

If I have money, the authorities come to take it from me

If I have money, I have to pay high taxes

with the following programs

I have enough money to pay all my taxes

I can choose who I pay taxes to

Result: the money is still blocked, I have 2 courses I signed up for, both still unpaid. I have to wait until Monday, maybe something will be resolved...

February 19, 2023 - Command to Send Feelings to Inanimate Objects

 

I discover in the manual the command to send feelings to inanimate objects, not just to people, which I find interesting.

I send feelings related to:

- beauty,

- comfort,

- being well-groomed,

- being spacious,

- being relaxing,

- elegance,

- luxury,

- pleasant ambiance,

- cleanliness,

- pleasant smell and

smooth flow of energy to our house and to the little house - workshop.

We will see the results in time...

February 24, 2023 - I Send Light and Unconditional Love Again

 

My husband's tooth is still swollen - he looks like a beaten boxer. Half of his face is swollen from the repair process at the table.

Before going to bed, I send him unconditional love and energy from the highest plane of creation again through a specific command, in the theta state.

He sleeps well and in the morning he wakes up much better, the swelling almost repaired, his face almost normal, maybe 20-30% left compared to 100% swollen the day before. He could hardly see with his right eye because of the swelling. I'm glad that at least from this point of view I've calmed down a bit. I felt responsible because I convinced him not to take antibiotics and let his body repair itself. I explained to him according to German medicine what was wrong. The repair process was in the bone, that's why the swelling was so big.

At least here we are fine...

February 24, 2023 - Blockages at my New Payment Processor, Nerves, Anger, Disappointment, Many Blockages

 To avoid the very high fees from PayPal I made a new account with another payment processor. I added an IBAN, waited 2 days and the money came back, it was not accepted by the bank. 2 wasted days. Before going to bed I work on some programs chosen by the Creator related to money.

I wake up at 3 am and understand why the payment processor returned the amounts sent to my IBAN account. Somehow I have a little mental clarity and I immediately find the cause of the problem without calling the processor's customer service.

Unfortunately I added an IBAN that could not receive international payments and from here a whole "cheer" - I waited 2-3 days for the money to arrive with which I could enroll in the advanced Theta course plus an abundance course that I want. I received some of the money back in the processor's account, the rest probably tomorrow because I managed to send a second amount to the same account.

In total, 4 wasted days, nerves, disappointment, helplessness. Why is everything going so badly with my money, why is everything so difficult and complicated? To save a few dollars, I have already lost 4 days and I still have to lose because I added another IBAN account to the payment processor that was supposed to take 30 minutes to be approved. It's already almost 24 hours. I feel like screaming with nerves. Why is everything related to money going so slowly? In another life, I abused my power and hurt people by taking their money. Now I've created the circumstances for myself to see how it is. But I'm fed up. Haven't I already learned how it is? I've been struggling for years...

During the night I work on the blockage "Money stresses me out" and replace it with:

I am relaxed about money

Money relaxes me

I am relatable around money

and others like that that I only mentally processed at the moment and don't remember anymore. The idea is to get into a state of relaxation about money.

Now I don't feel stressed anymore, just nervous that everything is so hard and confusing.

I intend to work on this today too. I know that everything starts from me, from my blockages. When I eliminate them all, it will be fine. Until then, nerves, despair, anger...at me, at the payment processor, at the customer service people because someone else always answers my messages and it's chaos. I know that all that chaos is inside me and I have a hard time controlling my anger, especially at myself. Why am I so stupid?

February 23, 2023 - Sending Energy and Unconditional Love

 Because during the night my husband feels weak and cold from his problems with his stomach and swollen face, I decide to call on the Creator again.

I enter the Theta state and see when I gather the energy of the earth that it is very bright blue and that it goes through all my chakras. The usual light bulb this time is very bright blue.

I give the only command that I can give without the consent of a person, namely to make the energy from the highest plane of existence and unconditional love go through every cell in his body. At "Show me" I see the same blue descending through his entire body along with another similar pink light. I estimate that one is energy, the other is love. I ground his energy and then mine and go to sleep more peacefully.

In the morning his condition is much better, he no longer suffers from the cold and manages to walk 3 hours into the city at the request of those from his company.

I'm looking to participate in Advanced DNA with the same instructor, with the request to pay for the course in installments, part after the course because then I'll get paid. They tell me that the list of participants has already been sent and it's no longer possible. It's ok, it means I have to test another instructor. I'm signing up with someone else for March 31 - April 2. Now I'm waiting to be able to pay...the wait is fruitless. I clearly still have work to do on the money-related blockages that are driving me crazy...

February 24 - a third instructor puts out an offer for the Abundance course at an excellent price. I'm signing up...again I'm waiting with frustration for a series of money that was supposed to come into my card yesterday and that will pay for this course...plus I'm waiting for the approval of another project that would make a difference for Advanced DNA next week...the frustrations about money are getting more and more annoying. I feel like I'm about to break the dam, but I still have a few small steps to take...I'll take them...

February 22, 2023 - Stuttering Session, Free Session for Me and a Sensitive Conviction Related to Dad

 Towards evening we decide to work on the stuttering programs. I haven't found anything to put in place. We leave it as it is.

When I ask the Creator to show me in the state of meditation the result of the beginning, I see the little one again at 3 years old in the house where I lived at the time, cheerfully closing the monitor screen (on which the movie had been playing) and then coming to me in my arms happily and saying to me "Mommy, stop stuttering", while I am in the room door and watching the whole scene.

When I sit up in bed, because I can't decide which programs to work on, but because I want to take advantage of the quiet moment, I decide to give the Creator the command to work with me on any 10 programs that he considers useful for me at that moment. Various programs automatically come to mind such as I am prosperous, I am rich and others that I don't remember anymore, but that I received intuitively.

During the night I wake up and decide to work on the program "I hate my father". In the "Show me" stage I see my father in the seventh plane and hug him. Then I see him descending into his body and I descend too and ground myself in peace and joy. I feel good and at peace. I still have 2 more programs to work on related to him. I need to retest them first to see if they are still valid.

I still can't sleep and I choose to work on the program, namely "I'm suffocating". I use the term, especially related to money and it reminds me of those moments in kindergarten when I was forced to sit with my head under the sheet at lunch because I couldn't sleep. I can't see myself in the ball of light at all. I feel like I have hedgehogs made of tin foil around me, not heavy, just ugly, gray, gloomy, I can't see the light and the ball of light no matter how hard I try to concentrate and resume the meditation. I still rise to the seventh plane, without the globe but only with the ugly wings and ask to replace the program with "I breathe freely", "I am free" and "I am safe".

I also download the feeling "I know how it feels to breathe freely". Then, at the "Show me" part, I see myself with the same wings, but this time very beautiful, of light. I understand that something has worked...