February 27, 2023 - I Ask the Creator about the Blockages, I Do the Digging Process, the Money is Still Blocked

 

I ask the Creator in meditation why my money is blocked and the unblocking process is taking so long. I started with the desire to save about $10 in fees and because of that I can't access the money for about a week because I used a new payment processor that charges me less fees.

The Creator tells me that it is OK to attend the courses I have planned, that is not the problem but the blockage - "I trust money NOT". Interesting discovery. I am working on the blockage.

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In the afternoon I create a meditation with all the money-related blockages identified in the last few days and not yet worked on:

I feel comfortable with a lot of money NO

I feel comfortable in luxury NO

Money comes hard

Money and possessions are good NO

I have to spend all the money, otherwise I will be left without it

I deserve to have a lot of money even if I work a little

To have money, the government, the Masons or other authorities must give you permission

If I earn a lot of money, I will have to pay high taxes

I feel intimidated by luxury and people with money

I easily attract wealth NO

If I have a lot of money, I will lose my family

I feel comfortable in luxury NO

I feel comfortable in abundance NO

I feel comfortable with a lot of money NO

There are many, many, more and more coming to light. I'm terrified of the state my subconscious is in, how many blockages are coming out. It sounds bad, but it's like I'm taking out the dirt from a septic tank. God, how much is coming out and it never ends. I feel helpless, hopeless.

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In the evening I start writing in my Theta notebook what I think would happen if I had a lot of money like I want so that we could all live carefree without being tied to a stressful job, with difficult clients, with obligations...to be free.

I identified the following fears and blockages:

Money brings loneliness

Money brings guilt

Money breaks up families

Money brings hardship

Money brings sadness.

God, how many keep coming out. I try to work on them, but I'm interrupted by my little one during meditation. I get angry and see myself surrounded by darkness, all the beautiful light from the seventh plane suddenly disappears. I sit quietly and wait for it to pass. I get angry not at him but at myself and the mess that keeps coming out of my subconscious. I wait for the house to be quiet again, I calm down and resume meditation.

Today, February 28th as I write this, I still have no message from the payment processor, the accounts are still being approved (although it was supposed to take 30 minutes I already have 24 hours - the last time it took 3 days and when I wrote to the customer service they told me that I had nothing given for approval - all the account data was deleted), the money still blocked - part of it has to come back from the bank from the first account where the bank did not accept external payments and the second amount to the processor's account.

I'm tired of everything going so slowly. I feel a state of anger that is hard to describe, especially at myself and the chaos inside me that blocks my wealth, peace, tranquility, well-being. Why does everything have to go so badly and hindered? Why do I have to work so hard for everything I achieve?

Anger still gives me energy to move forward...I don't give up...

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Exactly 30 seconds after I published this article I discovered in my email a message with a payment (other than the blocked ones) that I received a day earlier!! and which helps me pay for my first course which is in 3 days...I have a month until the next one, so I'm not so stressed out with the payment processor anymore.

Have I unlocked something? I think I did something good from all the programs I worked on... Thank you!!!