Week 17 - February 21, 2025 - Healing the Heart Chakra

 

I started the day thinking about last week, a tough and difficult week for me, with many painful events that I wrote about here. I tried to listen to one of the meditations for healing the heart chakra in the morning, but I was interrupted halfway through and gave up. Anyway, I listened to it more than I had to because I don't like to give up. I was exhausted, in no mood, with a state of calm, but without feeling the meditation too deeply. I was listening to it just so that this week would come to an end. At the section where I had to think about a situation far from me, I got a slight irritation because that's what the solar plexus chakra meditation required and I was thinking that I didn't feel like going through last week's images again - I wanted something new and I didn't know what.

Meanwhile, during the day I received the ordered books on the topic of family constellations and I chose Mark Wolynn's book "Your Story Began Long Ago - How to Heal Inherited Family Traumas". After half of the book read and a chosen trauma to work on, I decided to resume the meditations for the heart chakra because now everything made sense and I saw the natural continuation of last week.

I chose these two meditations from here and here. The first is a guided meditation with imagining a situation and the second one with Reiki energy.

Day 1

Meditation 1 - I listened to the meditation calmly and peacefully, with joy even. I chose a situation from my life in which I resume the financial patterns of my paternal grandmother while reading Mark's book. The meditation is perfect for the constellation situation because half of it is just music, so perfect for having a conversation with a specific person. I thanked my grandmother for everything she gave me and, as the author shows us in the book, I told her that I choose to leave with her all the elements of struggle and frustration that I face like her. Every day I will choose a different work situation. Now these meditations have their place and purpose.

Meditation 2 - I listened to it with a state of calm and peace, I felt charged with energy. During the session, I received information related to the pattern in the family constellations that I need to heal tomorrow with the help of the first meditation - namely my maternal grandmother's fear of her husband not coming home every time he leaves, given the fact that he was away at war. I saw Archangel Raphael enveloped in a very intense green light, he caressed my head. His palms were very large, disproportionate to the rest of his body.

February 18 - I postponed the meditations. I spent the day creating, with my mother's help, a picture of our family, with relatives long dead, with traumas, deaths in war, abandonments, single women and children who left us at a young age. The last three generations before me have a very high trauma burden. There is hardly a member of my family who has not suffered beyond the limit of imagining. I was impressed by so much suffering. I read about the massacre at Cotul Donului where over 200,000 Romanian soldiers died, including my ancestors. A lot of sadness and suffering. I'm still reading, trying to identify my family ties and the suffering that I involuntarily took over from some of them. I also spoke to my father on the phone after 8 months in which I didn't want to talk to him because it upset me so much. It was good for me to reconnect with him, but I didn't feel any strong energy transmitted to me from him. He's a weak man, but breaking up with him doesn't serve me any good. I think he learned his lesson. This time I told him everything I think because last time his message shocked me and I didn't succeed. We'll maintain a civilized relationship and that's it.

February 19 - I started a campaign to honor those who have passed away among us with my mother, aunt, cousin and my brother's fiancée. Each one, according to their feelings, lit more or less candles and talked to their loved ones, thanking them for what I had taken from them. I talked to my grandmothers and all my relatives who suffered as a result of the war, I thanked them for everything they offered me and I told them that I was leaving the struggle and suffering that did not belong to me to them. I felt like a chapter was ending. I lit 9 candles that symbolized the end of the cycle of struggle and suffering. My mother and aunt lit two each, my brother's fiancée lit 6 and my cousin felt like lighting just one for a new beginning. We synchronized and complemented each other very well.

February 20th Day 2 - I resumed the meditations. Meditation 2 - I listened to it in peace, slightly absent at the beginning, but with a state of peace and positivity.

Day 3 - Meditation 2 - I watched it in peace, with a good state of joy and satisfaction until the end when I heard the phrase that this is a magical universe, full of love, a phrase that I do not completely agree with. Maybe I will one day, but not today. Meditation 1 - state of peace and peace, slight boredom because these meditations they seem too long and the commercials get on my nerves when they come on and ruin the whole atmosphere.

Intuition and then the kinesiology test show me that I can move on to the throat chakra.

Geo