January 24, 2025 - I am starting a healing and material abundance program Reiki, meditations, hypnosis with Mon Aly

 

Exhausted after years of work in which I saw very few results (in fact, with each program I saw results immediately after starting, then everything got stuck again each time), after 2 years of Theta Healing, 6 courses and quite a lot of money invested, after 8 months of The Emotion Code group and private sessions, after 3 months of meditations for healing the intrauterine period, of the family, after 3 Rhonda Byrne gratitude programs all followed with discipline to the end, after a year of mystery courses and countless larger or smaller webinars on various topics that I won't mention here, a few months ago I decided to give up and accept my fate. I will never have as much money as I want, I will have to always ask, to beg, I will only have short periods of joy. After years of being grateful for 5 lei, 10 lei, 1 dollar or 3 euros, I had reached despair and abandoned the whole process, exhausted from looking for what was blocking me.

I was tired of healing my mother's family, my father's, my grandmother's family with a mentality of being a pariah, a scoundrel and a servant, hundreds of years of poverty, anger, lack, giving up, humiliation... and I gave up on everything until I found a few Reiki sessions by Mon Aly on her YouTube channel. After only 2 or 3 sessions (one to cleanse curses and two related to money) I managed to attract amounts of money for a few days in a row that were worth being grateful for... then the more I did others, the more everything got blocked again... for the umpteenth time. I felt like screaming with nerves and exhaustion. Again!!!

And I joined her Facebook group. And I was recommended an 11-week program, not chaotic listening to meditations on YouTube.

The first 8 weeks, the healing meditation of each of the chakras is worked on daily: root, sacral, solar plexus, heart, throat, third eye, crown and stellate. There are possible unpleasant effects such as nausea, headaches, nightmares, fatigue. If the effects are persistent, grounding sessions are recommended.

The last 3 weeks, 3 or 4 meditations are listened to daily, chosen differently each week.

Starting today, I'm starting strong and writing weekly how the work went. I'm making another attempt. I'm tired of the suffering, the lack, the humiliation of not having everything you want and of having to ask from others and depend on them, of the struggle. We'll see how it goes. I feel like I will succeed one day, I see myself having everything I want, abundance without so many frustrations and limits. We'll see if after this program. I'll keep you posted,

Geo

Sattva, Rajas and Tamas Guna

 

Let me tell you what I learned in this week's Ayurveda course. It's definitely useful.

I don't think I needed to say that food influences our mood, but how exactly, Indian sages teach us by defining the three fundamental tendencies of nature: sattva, rajas and tamas.

Guna is a term that is translated in several ways, but in principle it means fundamental factor of creation.

Sattva guna is the conscious element, the ascending force, that is, the element that helps us evolve, to be better, the factor of balance between energy and matter. It corresponds to the divine nature in man, it represents light, serenity, expansion of consciousness, liberation from suffering, knowledge, happiness, clarity, enlightenment, self-knowledge, power, health.

Rajas guna is the force that holds us in place, the horizontal force. It is a powerful force, it represents passion, desire, energy in motion, vitality, emotion, activity, concrete actions, passion that can sometimes turn into violence, suffering, oscillation between joy and suffering, stubbornness, anger, manipulation. It is a force that holds us in place, although it emanates a lot of energy because it determines us to be obsessed with something we want and does not allow us to evolve, to ascend in consciousness. We seek fulfillment not within ourselves but in the external world, we desire many material things.

Tamas guna is a force of a descending nature, a force that brings us down, that takes us lower than we are, a force that means laziness, stagnation, inertia, non-activity, neglect, darkness of the mind, indecision, ignorance, opacity, limited, animal nature.

Ayurveda describes rajas and tamas as the source of diseases.

Okay, okay, and how do I apply the above in my life?

The foods we eat give us one or more of the above states. Sattva is the ideal one. Rajas and tamas not so much.

Sattvic foods are those that we feel give us energy, strength, power, joy, liveliness, have a pleasant natural taste (natural, remember, not with additives), have a naturally oily texture, do not spoil. In general, ripe fruits, natural vegetables, fresh sweet milk, ghee butter and in general everything that is tasty, natural and little processed fall here.

Rajasic foods are those that are bitter, sour, salty, too hot, spicy, tasteless, that burn, give suffering, anger and illness. Foods with taste enhancers or those that stimulate us too strongly also fall here. These foods give us states of anger, unhealthy passion, obsessive desires, anger, nerves.

Tamasic foods are those that are stale, have lost their taste, those that have waited too long in the refrigerator for us to eat them, those that are not fresh, spoiled, smelly, improperly stored, which tend to deteriorate. Overly processed foods are in the same category because they are depleted of nutrients and in turn deplete us. These foods give us feelings of fear, worry, anxiety, restlessness. Improperly frozen and thawed fruits and vegetables also fall into this category. Those that are quickly frozen are OK.

And a concrete example - this morning I wanted to drink some tea. It was too hot and it instantly made me nervous. So clearly a rajas food, although it was a good ginger tea with honey. It was much better to drink moderately warm.

So choose carefully what you eat because it influences your mood every day. Try to feel how each food you eat influences you and choose those foods that are good for you in the long term, that support your health, vitality and growth in consciousness.

Kisses,

Geo

My mission - finally understood after years of searching

 

I always thought that a person's mission in life had to be something grand, like finding a cure for a serious illness or helping poor children around the world. It's not like that. Yesterday reality "hit" me and I understood my mission. I've been looking for it for years through various courses, seminars and books. And only yesterday, after years of struggle, I understood it. It's simple and only involves living in accordance with my values.

I was born into a generation of liars, thieves, bad people, abusive, womanizers, drunkards, swindlers, selfish, arrogant, violent people. People who don't respect and abuse their wives and children, the weakest, cowards who don't have the courage to take responsibility for their actions, manipulative people who consider controlling others to be their right. It's true, there are good parts, but the bad parts are painful.

Fake people for whom what the world thinks is more important than warm, authentic family relationships. People capable of doing anything to be well-liked in society, but incapable of communication, of openness, fake people, lacking integrity, capable of anything to obtain material advantages and status in society. People who trample on their own souls, people for whom it is more important to be well-liked by the world than to be truly good with yourself and to have a close relationship with your loved ones. Cold, distant people who believe that you have to educate your children with force, with violence, with humiliation. People who believe that a child is weak and incapable of thinking for himself and that the parent who always knows better must guide him and control him at all costs.

I feel that I also have this garbage, these non-values ​​in me, but I choose for them to stop with me, not to be perpetuated further. I was born into the family I was born into precisely to understand them better.

Once, when Vlad was little and he really upset me, I was tempted to hit him. I angrily threw a chair on the floor and yelled at him. But I stopped myself. I still remember it now, 10 years later. I don't want my son to be afraid of me and do what I want because he's afraid of me, because that's what I ordered him to do, or because that's how people shouldn't talk to us. I trust his discernment and he hasn't disappointed me. We've always discussed things openly and listened to him, even though I've often been tempted to impose something on him.

And yesterday I understood my mission - I don't have to cure any disease, nor stop hunger in the world. My mission is related to my people. I have to stop the perpetuation of non-values, and this will help raise the entire people to a different vibration. For some it is not comfortable at all, but that's how I've always been, I've taken people out of their comfort zone. That's what I'm best at. I want to make a change and that's my mission. To live in accordance with my values, to accept that non-values ​​exist in us, but not to manifest them in my life. That's all. It's a simpler mission than I thought. For years I've been struggling to understand what I have to do in this life. I just have to live and stop compromising. To do what I feel, not what I have to and not what is imposed on me by force or manipulation and lies.

Whoever supports me and feels that I am is welcome in my life. Whoever has other plans, I don't stand in their way. I just don't accept manipulation, lies, abuse anymore. Until now, I accepted them only with the aim of understanding them. From now on, I understand them, recognize them and choose to move away from them. Whoever is willing to leave the comfort zone is welcome with me.

Kiss you,

Geo

2000 euros later I choose the path of giving up

 

I've been working intensely with myself for years, in the last two years I've also invested money. I've also invested a little in other things, especially in books, but in the last two years, I've invested more intensely. About 2000 euros, maybe even more, in courses, private sessions, meditations and various programs. A lot, a little? A lot for me and for the fact that I left money... with the idea of ​​living better, helping my family more, so that my husband wouldn't have to leave home so much for money. The result: I'm tired of fighting and I'm giving up. There are no notable results. They were short-lived and that's it.

And in addition, someone tells me and shakes me up with the idea - "it's karma, you have to live with this, not everything can be solved, but those who sell you programs won't tell you that". So, I have to stop trying to solve something and I have to live. Period.

I give up everything, especially investing money and time and I choose to live. How can I. I don't fight anymore. I choose apathy and resignation...or better said, vulgar, but I have no other expression, it breaks me completely. Who sent me here to suffer, the fact that I don't have what I want, that I'm tired of pulling and pushing, I no longer connect with any divinity because it doesn't bother me, I no longer bother with gratitude programs. I'm alone here and I do what I can. I rely only on myself. I stop here and what each day brings me, that's it...

August 29, 2024 - Rain does not come to bad people

 

Believe it or not, this is the reply I received from my father about 2-3 years ago. In our area for about 5 years during the summer it rains very little. We made ponds upon ponds, we buy barrels upon barrels to collect water in the fall and spring so that we can manage to keep the garden in good condition during the summer when there is a severe drought and it only rains a few times in a 3-4 month period. On that fateful day that I still remember now because his reply really hurt me, where they were (about 200km away from us) it had rained and where we weren't. And it hit me hard. I think he was trying to make an old joke, but it hurt me because it's not the first time the evil he transmits overwhelms me. He also claims with conviction that boys bring luck to the house and girls bad luck. And I am also a girl... and now a bad person. That's why it doesn't rain and I deserve to be punished with drought and implicitly hunger because the earth doesn't bear fruit where it doesn't rain, right?

They say that what you see in others is what you see, so if you see bad people, you are actually bad. That's to console me a little, but it doesn't help me much because the reply hit me straight in the soul and hurt me a lot.

They've been struggling to get it to rain for two days now. It barely drizzles and then stops again, so I decided this morning to take out the following painful beliefs for myself:

If it doesn't rain, we are bad people

Dad thinks I am bad

Dad thinks we are bad people, me and my family

Dad thinks I am bad

Dad thinks my family and I are bad

Where there are bad people, it doesn't rain

Rain doesn't come where there are bad people

It doesn't rain on us because we are bad

I am bad

It doesn't rain on us because I am bad

It doesn't rain because of me

Rain doesn't come because we are bad

Rain runs away from us because we are bad

Rain doesn't come to bad people

Rain leaves where there are bad people

Rain runs away from bad people

Rain runs away from me because I am bad

Rain only comes to good people

I must be punished because I'm bad

I have to suffer because I'm bad

I deserve to be punished by my father because I'm bad

I deserve to be punished because I'm bad

In the meantime, I discovered that we can influence the weather with our state of mind. My aunt, after a few months in Italy where my summer drained her of energy with her relationship problems, attracted a terrible hailstorm that destroyed our entire garden only 2 hours after it arrived at our place. I should mention that in the 7 years we've lived here, we've NEVER had hail. So....the rain probably comes hard because with my fiery constitution I chase it away :) I have to learn to calm down, to be more gentle and pliable.

And yes, I'm sure about the auntie episode. The episode was repeated a year later. Only this time, suspecting the situation, I went to her as soon as the hail started and told her to raise her vibration urgently, otherwise the hail would destroy our 3 months of work again. The hail stopped within 2 minutes of the time I went to her and it didn't destroy anything and lately, since my aunt started coming to us less and less, the weather has been good. so...

August 25, 2024 - How Ayurveda works - practical case, tested on me

 

This morning I woke up annoyed. Whatever annoyed me, my husband talking too much, the ducks quacking too loudly, the dogs standing in my way too much, the sun was already too hot, I wanted to take some yesterday's cut potatoes out of a bowl and got my hands dirty because there were a few drops of oil in the water and that irritated me to the max. You get the idea - I was in a crazy mood to argue. And before I started looking for a knot in someone's butt, I decided to see what was wrong with me...nerves, anger, irritation mean unbalanced pitta dosha. That means too much fire in the body.

Let me remind you of the three constitutions in Ayurveda: pitta (80% fire and 20% water), vata (air and ether) and kapha (earth and water). When you are nervous, irritated and nothing goes your way, it means pitta is unbalanced. When you are anxious, fearful, have the feeling that something bad is going to happen, you are sitting with fear and stress or your head is in the clouds and you can't gather yourself, it means that vata is not quite right. And when you are depressed and you can't get up, kapha is to blame. Here are tests to see what constitution you have and other details about Ayurveda.

And I sit like this and think about what I did yesterday:

- I ate shakshouka with warm toast in the morning (lots of tomatoes in sauce, lots of tomato juice, sour, warm and brown bread, lots of fire in everything),

- I spent half a day in the sun washing some jars that I took out of the cellar, again fire and heat,

- in the evening I made a barbecue on the disc, I sat in the heat, plenty of flames under the disc, barbecue is a food that accumulates a lot of fire in it for obvious reasons;

- I drank red wine after the barbecue, again fire;

- after the meal I lit a candle on the table, so ambient, a bright orange candle and very fragrant with the aroma of oranges (again a lot of fire and intense smell);

- I ate a few slices of salami biscuits with a lot of cocoa, again fire food.

How can I not wake up irritated at how much fire energy I gathered the day before? Especially since my main constitution is pitta, meaning maximum potential for fire imbalance.

When a dosha becomes unbalanced (meaning one of the constitutions) this does not happen because of the food but is an accumulation of factors gathered from all our senses - taste, smell, sight, touch, etc. I ate a lot of fire foods, I sat in the heat, I looked at the fire... it was expected that too much fire energy would accumulate in me.

Okay, okay. I identified the problem. And now what to do?

Well, let's balance it with the opposite. Pitta is hot, dry, oily, sour, salty, spicy. This is how Ayurveda identifies it. We act in all ways with the opposite. That is, we eat sweet and bitter food, stay cool, drink lots of liquids, preferably cold or as cool as possible. I made an Ayurvedic pitta tea (sweet-bitter). I really like Everest Ayurveda teas. I'm not paid to promote them. I just like them. Hand-picked plants from clean areas in Nepal and mixtures designed by an Ayurveda specialist doctor with whom the company collaborates. Then I drank water, made myself a chicken soup with carrot (sweet) and bell pepper (bitter) which I ate warm. Today I'm staying more indoors in the cool and less in the sun. My nerves went away after the soup and tea in about half an hour. Ah...and I drank the tea in a blue mug that gives me a feeling of coolness. I also have a similar pink mug that gave me a feeling of warmth and I couldn't look at it. As I was saying, colors also matter because visually we can lose our balance.

This is my experience.

I will come back with new discoveries. I have been studying Ayurveda for a short time, but it amazes me how precisely it works and how good I feel. By the way, I am not constipated at all anymore. I find it fantastic. Since the last article about Ayurveda, my digestion has remained as good as ever after balancing vata (i.e. dryness in the body with oils, fats and tea).

Good health to everyone,

Geo

August 22, 2024 - Ioan Slavici activated me again with his poverty programs

 

I accidentally came across the quote in the attached image - "It's great wealth to settle for less". Again this gentleman about whom I have written here and his ideas related to poverty and why poverty is a virtue. And I was curious to learn more about the history of this person as wealth/wealth. And I found out that he was a failed writer and businessman. He tried to open a spa in Busteni, with great efforts, debts and losses. Those who bought the business from him for nothing had to gain. Conclusion - in all these moralizing quotes Ioan Slavici hid his own helplessness and inability to make money, to rise from poverty. And seeing that he could not get rich, he concluded that poverty is a virtue. How simple and elegant, right? If I cannot be rich, I urge you to be like me because only poverty fulfills you as a human being, right? Bullshit!!! American :) Bullshit, Mr. Slavici. If you are incapable, why don't you let others and wish us all the best on our side of the fence? Well, I refuse to indulge in your moralizing quotes and decide to release everything that pulls me down towards your "successes". Here's what I released, some even aberrant and with terms that visibly contradict each other:

It's a great wealth to be content with little

You have to be content with little

I have to be happy with little

Wealth means something other than money

Wealth means something other than wealth

Wealth means something other than abundance

Wealth means something other than prosperity

Wealth means something other than abundance or contentment

It's a great honor to have little

It's a great honor to be content with little

It's a great pride to have little

It's a great pride to be content with little

It's a great virtue to have little

It's a great virtue to be content with little

You are rich when you are content with little

Being resigned is a wealth

Abandoning your dreams and desires is a wealth and a virtue

Lack of ambition is a wealth and a virtue

Lack of determination is a wealth and a virtue

Wealth means having little

Wealth means giving up abundance

Wealth means giving up money

Wealth means giving up wealth

Wealth means giving up abundance

Wealth means living with little

Abundance means being content with little

Abundance means being content with little

Insatiability means being content with little

You should be proud of having little

Poverty is a virtue

Living in want is a virtue

To be rich means accepting and taking pride in your poverty

The poor will be rich in the afterlife

August 21, 2024 - I'm in danger if I show my true face, Passing Netflix

 

I'm watching the movie Passing on Netflix with interest. The movie is about a black woman whose life is turned upside down by meeting a childhood friend who was posing as a white woman. She took advantage of the fact that she had lighter skin than black women, married a white man who hated black people, and built her entire life based on lies. Seeing the clean and honest life that her friend had in the black community of Harlem, the "white" friend realizes what a dry and lying life she leads and starts visiting her friend in Harlem more and more often until she is discovered by her white husband. In the end, she dies after a stupid accident, an accident that we don't know how it actually happens in the movie because things happen too quickly - she throws herself from the window, her black friend avoids catching her, her husband pushes her... the idea is that she dies the moment her true identity is revealed.

I am inspired to extract and release the following programs because I identify with them:

I have to hide who I really am

If the world finds out who I am, I will suffer

I have to hide

The world can find out who I am no

I have to hide my true face

I have to hide my true nature

I have to hide my true personality

I have to show who I am no

I can show who I am no

I am safe showing who I am no

If I show who I really am, I will suffer

If I show who I really am, I will be accused

If I show who I really am, I will be killed

If I show who I really am, I will be marginalized

If I show who I really am, I will lose my family

If I show who I really am who I really am, I will be judged

Being a mother is the cruelest thing in the world (it's one of the lines of one of the characters)

You have to make a pact with the enemy to be well

You have to make a pact with the enemy to be safe

The enemy must not see who you really are

The enemy must not know who you really are

People hate me

For people to love me, I have to pretend to be different

If I hide who I am, I will gain

If they find out who I am, I will die

If they find out who I am, I will be killed

August 20, 2024 - Woman: Entrepreneur or Housewife - CJ Walker Netflix

 

Today I watched the movie CJ Walker on Netflix. It's about a black woman who goes from a simple poor washerwoman to a successful entrepreneur, owner of a cosmetics company. During the process, she loses her husband because she doesn't have time for him and doesn't really involve him in the company's decisions, she gets sick, her daughter gets married but she also gets divorced, he chooses to help her in the business, but he announces that he doesn't intend to marry again or give her any grandchildren. She ends up living next to a great business magnate, has an impressive house and estate, a business with 10,000 employees, success, appreciation and lots, lots of money.

However, the movie subtly conveys the idea that a woman who leaves the kitchen and the pot risks being left without a family, husband, health and dying young. A series of programs that I can't agree with. Why couldn't we have them all?

I decide to make a list of what Madame CJ Walker gains and what she loses. Here it is:

Gains: money, success, home/wealth, recognition, respect, a successful business, and decision-making power

Lose: family, husband, grandchildren/offspring, health, long life.