August 29, 2024 - Rain does not come to bad people

 

Believe it or not, this is the reply I received from my father about 2-3 years ago. In our area for about 5 years during the summer it rains very little. We made ponds upon ponds, we buy barrels upon barrels to collect water in the fall and spring so that we can manage to keep the garden in good condition during the summer when there is a severe drought and it only rains a few times in a 3-4 month period. On that fateful day that I still remember now because his reply really hurt me, where they were (about 200km away from us) it had rained and where we weren't. And it hit me hard. I think he was trying to make an old joke, but it hurt me because it's not the first time the evil he transmits overwhelms me. He also claims with conviction that boys bring luck to the house and girls bad luck. And I am also a girl... and now a bad person. That's why it doesn't rain and I deserve to be punished with drought and implicitly hunger because the earth doesn't bear fruit where it doesn't rain, right?

They say that what you see in others is what you see, so if you see bad people, you are actually bad. That's to console me a little, but it doesn't help me much because the reply hit me straight in the soul and hurt me a lot.

They've been struggling to get it to rain for two days now. It barely drizzles and then stops again, so I decided this morning to take out the following painful beliefs for myself:

If it doesn't rain, we are bad people

Dad thinks I am bad

Dad thinks we are bad people, me and my family

Dad thinks I am bad

Dad thinks my family and I are bad

Where there are bad people, it doesn't rain

Rain doesn't come where there are bad people

It doesn't rain on us because we are bad

I am bad

It doesn't rain on us because I am bad

It doesn't rain because of me

Rain doesn't come because we are bad

Rain runs away from us because we are bad

Rain doesn't come to bad people

Rain leaves where there are bad people

Rain runs away from bad people

Rain runs away from me because I am bad

Rain only comes to good people

I must be punished because I'm bad

I have to suffer because I'm bad

I deserve to be punished by my father because I'm bad

I deserve to be punished because I'm bad

In the meantime, I discovered that we can influence the weather with our state of mind. My aunt, after a few months in Italy where my summer drained her of energy with her relationship problems, attracted a terrible hailstorm that destroyed our entire garden only 2 hours after it arrived at our place. I should mention that in the 7 years we've lived here, we've NEVER had hail. So....the rain probably comes hard because with my fiery constitution I chase it away :) I have to learn to calm down, to be more gentle and pliable.

And yes, I'm sure about the auntie episode. The episode was repeated a year later. Only this time, suspecting the situation, I went to her as soon as the hail started and told her to raise her vibration urgently, otherwise the hail would destroy our 3 months of work again. The hail stopped within 2 minutes of the time I went to her and it didn't destroy anything and lately, since my aunt started coming to us less and less, the weather has been good. so...