May 28, 2023 - Again money-related programs and an immediate result...

 

In the morning:

I offer to buy some construction materials we need in the yard with the money I've saved on my card. My husband suggests we take the money I earned and put it in the house for other payments because I still need 140 RON to top up the amount online and pay with his card. I get angry and work:

I feel humiliated that my husband doesn't accept my money

I can only earn money when I have to prove to someone that I can

I earn money only when I am ambitious

I earn money only when I am in competition

What I have to offer is good enough no

My money is good no

What I achieve is worthless

What I achieve is just crap

What I achieve is worthless

I am a worthless person

I deserve to be humiliated because I am unable to offer anything of quality

I deserve to be humiliated because what I offer is of no value

I always have to prove that I can

I always have to prove that I am better than others

Constant money means daily work

I can only receive money during the week

I have to be supported by a man

Can I be financially independent?

Towards the evening - I get a new project from which I complete the 140 RON and still have some extra money...