May 18, 2023 - again about fears - fear of fire and fires

 

About 6 years ago, when I was living in another town, due to the wet wood used and the uninsulated gutter on the outside, the deposits inside the gutter caught fire. The gutter burned inside so much that it had to be replaced and I ended up with a terrible scare and a terrible fear of fire.

The following year, our neighbor's house caught fire - the entire attic burned down so much that he had to rebuild the entire upper part. After we moved here where we live, we went through 3 vegetation fires, each one closer and closer to us, the last one in the forest next to us, 150m from the house.

Since then, every trace of smoke in the sky makes me startle and get a headache and panic. Last night I was in the garden, watering the tomatoes, someone had started a fire some distance away from us and the wind was carrying the smoke so that the whole valley was full of smoke. It gave me an instant headache. I started looking for the source of the smoke. I went to bed stressed and panicked and about 2-3 times during the night I went out to smell and see outside. It's not the first time I've looked out the window at night for fire.

In the morning some sparrows were scratching in the gutter on the roof and I thought I heard crackling sounds of fire somewhere in the garden. I panicked again because I couldn't breathe. And then I said, ENOUGH!!!!, I can't do this anymore. I can't stand not being able to breathe from fear. I have to do something.

I went into Theta and asked the all-creator to help me get rid of this fear. I identified it as a heavy, round stone on my solar plexus, I imagined how he dissolved it and took it away and filled the place with light. However, something was missing. I didn't feel completely calm. Also in the Theta state, I decided to dig a hole and asked the question "What would be the worst thing that could happen if there was a fire near our house?" What am I specifically afraid of? The answer: The house would burn down and we would lose our shelter. Another question: Am I afraid for us as a family, for our health? The answer: no - we would run away and be safe. And I continued: And what would happen if we lost our house? A: we would be homeless on the roads. And if we were like that, what? A: the world would laugh at us...and here I stopped...so my biggest worry is that the world wouldn't laugh at us. I almost burst out laughing in Theta. What nonsense in my head - I'm afraid of fire for fear of being homeless and the world would consider us homeless and laugh at us. The worst thing is, my fear of fire has gone. I even found my basic fear funny. I cleared the fear of the world laughing at us and started my day in peace. I walked through the garden without fear...