May 23, 2024 - A Facebook post, negative feelings - again about money

 

I have always been a person who appreciated simplicity. Modest, always dressed simply and comfortably, I have always appreciated intelligence, abilities, success through one's own efforts, not with files and connections. When I was a student, my father gave me the business card of a friend of his who advised me to go to him to find a job. I immediately threw it away and got up on my own. In 10 years, I became a manager in a multinational and I considered it a great achievement even though I was not happy there and on top of all this, I was also poorly paid. Because I carried the seed of poverty within me. I always looked with disgust at the whims, the whims of those with ready money whom I secretly envied, but whom I considered stupid and incapable. I had a classmate in high school whose father was a judge. She always dressed in luxurious furs and didn't even look at us ordinary mortals.

I came from a simple, poor, peasant family. A generation ago, my family would go with an ox cart and plow the fields in the scorching heat. I was intelligent, a prize-winner, but my father wouldn't buy me furs. I envied and hated my colleague at the same time, I wanted to be like her and not be like her at the same time. And I finally had the opportunity to be with her in the Law exam at the end of high school. I studied hard for 4 years, I also took lessons with the professors at the faculty before the exam, I studied the subject from 3 history textbooks and one philosophy textbook. And I entered with the fee with a grade of 5 in philosophy and an 8 in history and she was the only one whose grade was increased from 5 to 8 after the appeal. Entire walls of appeals and she was the only one whose grade was increased out of hundreds of appeals. My first dose of reality and injustice because I doubt that anyone really read the 16-page paper I wrote in those 4 cruel hours of the exam. There were hundreds of candidates.

And then I came across the news in the image that stirred up mixed feelings in me: disgust, nausea, envy, anger, hatred, helplessness, frustration, nothing positive as you can see. I initially wanted to scroll further on the screen and then I told myself to face my feelings and clean them up once and for all. What limiting beliefs are causing me physical nausea? Why do I hate this being? I don't know her. She's the child of rich parents, I'm the child of a poor family. She's full of money, money she receives from her father, she's plump and botoxed like most luxury "divas" who don't know how to stand out in anything else. She also has some pictures of her brother, but he doesn't really cause me the same disgust. I consider him stupid and that's it. With her I have what I have. Rich, beautiful, but fake, with money I didn't work for, a life of luxury that she doesn't deserve because she doesn't know what work is. These are my thoughts. I don't know her, it's not fair to judge her, but that's how I feel and I have to heal what I feel. If I think about it, more thoughts come to mind - fake, snotty, disgusting, she likes to pose, she thinks she's phenomenal, but she's just an ordinary woman, I've seen more beautiful women than her, wow, how much evil and hatred in me... okay, let's get to work...

Let's see what beliefs she "inspires" me with:

Children from poor parents / from poor families can be rich NO

Children from poor parents / from poor families can earn a lot of money NO

Children from poor parents / from poor families can succeed in life NO

Children from poor parents / from poor families can be successful NO

Children from poor parents / from poor families can have beautiful and expensive things

Children from poor parents / from poor families can travel to luxurious destinations and enjoy all the benefits there NO

Children from poor parents / from poor families can have luxurious and expensive houses NO

Children from poor parents / from poor families can have a lot of money NO

Children of poor parents / from poor families can have unlimited financial abundance NO

Children of poor parents / from poor families can have a lot of money by working a little NO

Children of poor parents / from poor families can have a lot of money by doing what they like NO

Children of poor parents / from poor families can have a lot of money easily NO

If you have poor parents / if you come from a poor family you earn money hard

If you have poor parents / if you come from a poor family you earn little money

If you have poor parents / if you come from a poor family you earn money with a lot of work

If you have poor parents / if you come from a poor family you can get rich NO

If you have poor parents / if you come from a poor family you can have an easy life NO

If you have poor parents / if you come from a poor family you can have expensive houses and beautiful NO

If you have poor parents/if you come from a poor family you can have luxury things NO

Poverty attracts poverty

The poor stay poor

If you were born poor, you stay poor

I took them out but with difficulty and interruptions until I managed to do the entire meditation...they were well rooted. We see the results...