April 21, 2023 - I work the wound of humiliation, Lise Bourbeau - The 5 wounds

 

These are the programs identified in Lise Bourbeau's book in the chapter "The Wound of Humiliation". I confirmed over three-quarters of them:

I am ashamed of my body

I am disgusted with myself

I find pleasure in suffering

I find satisfaction in suffering

I seek pain

I seek humiliation

I am ashamed of myself

I am proud of myself NO

I am dirty

I smell bad

I am fat

I am ugly

I like to rush

I like to help others

I like to serve others

I feel that others abuse me

I feel that I am the servant of others

People around me are ashamed of me

I love myself no

I love my body no

I easily express my needs no

I easily express what I really feel no

I am hypersensitive

I do anything to don't hurt others

I am responsible for the happiness of others

I laugh at myself to please others

I listen to my own needs no

I do anything to be useful

The wound of humiliation appeared when my mother scolded me for sucking my thumb (I learned this from my mother - I was up to 2 years old, I was at my grandparents' in the country and I saw my mother quite rarely and I would come to the side of a stranger to me, this remark was shocking at that age)

I blame myself for the faults of others

I take responsibility for problems that are not mine

I am free no

I respect myself no

I take care of myself enough no

I punish myself

I like to be an intermediary between other people

I am disgusted with myself

I am ashamed of my sexuality

Sexuality is a sin

Sexual pleasure is a sin

Sex is disgusting

Sex is shameful

Sex is dirty

If I had a supple and beautiful body, I would be too sexy

Sex is embarrassing

I have difficulty abandoning myself when making love

I carry weights on my back

Others suffocate me

I have difficulty recognizing my needs

I have difficulty expressing my requests

I have difficulty experiencing my pleasures

I feel guilty if I do my pleasures

I am unworthy

I take on the responsibilities of others

I fear humiliation

I am fat

I know my needs

I listen to my needs

I carry a lot of virtual weights on my back

I am hypersensitive

I reward myself with food

My mother is disgusted by me

My father is disgusted by me

I am truly recognized

My efforts are recognized

My mother is a burden to me

I am humble

I am insignificant

I fear freedom

I am worthy of being loved

I am worthy of being recognized

I enjoy life

I humble myself

The programs are generally in the order in which I found them in the chapter, so without a specific logic - test them all and replace them with what you feel.

I also asked for the healing of the wounded soul, the recovery of soul fragments and the sending of unconditional love to me, the child in the womb... I learned a lot during the meditation, a sign that the programs are being cleaned. .. I come back with other worked programs.