February 24, 2023 - Blockages at my New Payment Processor, Nerves, Anger, Disappointment, Many Blockages

 To avoid the very high fees from PayPal I made a new account with another payment processor. I added an IBAN, waited 2 days and the money came back, it was not accepted by the bank. 2 wasted days. Before going to bed I work on some programs chosen by the Creator related to money.

I wake up at 3 am and understand why the payment processor returned the amounts sent to my IBAN account. Somehow I have a little mental clarity and I immediately find the cause of the problem without calling the processor's customer service.

Unfortunately I added an IBAN that could not receive international payments and from here a whole "cheer" - I waited 2-3 days for the money to arrive with which I could enroll in the advanced Theta course plus an abundance course that I want. I received some of the money back in the processor's account, the rest probably tomorrow because I managed to send a second amount to the same account.

In total, 4 wasted days, nerves, disappointment, helplessness. Why is everything going so badly with my money, why is everything so difficult and complicated? To save a few dollars, I have already lost 4 days and I still have to lose because I added another IBAN account to the payment processor that was supposed to take 30 minutes to be approved. It's already almost 24 hours. I feel like screaming with nerves. Why is everything related to money going so slowly? In another life, I abused my power and hurt people by taking their money. Now I've created the circumstances for myself to see how it is. But I'm fed up. Haven't I already learned how it is? I've been struggling for years...

During the night I work on the blockage "Money stresses me out" and replace it with:

I am relaxed about money

Money relaxes me

I am relatable around money

and others like that that I only mentally processed at the moment and don't remember anymore. The idea is to get into a state of relaxation about money.

Now I don't feel stressed anymore, just nervous that everything is so hard and confusing.

I intend to work on this today too. I know that everything starts from me, from my blockages. When I eliminate them all, it will be fine. Until then, nerves, despair, anger...at me, at the payment processor, at the customer service people because someone else always answers my messages and it's chaos. I know that all that chaos is inside me and I have a hard time controlling my anger, especially at myself. Why am I so stupid?

February 23, 2023 - Sending Energy and Unconditional Love

 Because during the night my husband feels weak and cold from his problems with his stomach and swollen face, I decide to call on the Creator again.

I enter the Theta state and see when I gather the energy of the earth that it is very bright blue and that it goes through all my chakras. The usual light bulb this time is very bright blue.

I give the only command that I can give without the consent of a person, namely to make the energy from the highest plane of existence and unconditional love go through every cell in his body. At "Show me" I see the same blue descending through his entire body along with another similar pink light. I estimate that one is energy, the other is love. I ground his energy and then mine and go to sleep more peacefully.

In the morning his condition is much better, he no longer suffers from the cold and manages to walk 3 hours into the city at the request of those from his company.

I'm looking to participate in Advanced DNA with the same instructor, with the request to pay for the course in installments, part after the course because then I'll get paid. They tell me that the list of participants has already been sent and it's no longer possible. It's ok, it means I have to test another instructor. I'm signing up with someone else for March 31 - April 2. Now I'm waiting to be able to pay...the wait is fruitless. I clearly still have work to do on the money-related blockages that are driving me crazy...

February 24 - a third instructor puts out an offer for the Abundance course at an excellent price. I'm signing up...again I'm waiting with frustration for a series of money that was supposed to come into my card yesterday and that will pay for this course...plus I'm waiting for the approval of another project that would make a difference for Advanced DNA next week...the frustrations about money are getting more and more annoying. I feel like I'm about to break the dam, but I still have a few small steps to take...I'll take them...

February 22, 2023 - Stuttering Session, Free Session for Me and a Sensitive Conviction Related to Dad

 Towards evening we decide to work on the stuttering programs. I haven't found anything to put in place. We leave it as it is.

When I ask the Creator to show me in the state of meditation the result of the beginning, I see the little one again at 3 years old in the house where I lived at the time, cheerfully closing the monitor screen (on which the movie had been playing) and then coming to me in my arms happily and saying to me "Mommy, stop stuttering", while I am in the room door and watching the whole scene.

When I sit up in bed, because I can't decide which programs to work on, but because I want to take advantage of the quiet moment, I decide to give the Creator the command to work with me on any 10 programs that he considers useful for me at that moment. Various programs automatically come to mind such as I am prosperous, I am rich and others that I don't remember anymore, but that I received intuitively.

During the night I wake up and decide to work on the program "I hate my father". In the "Show me" stage I see my father in the seventh plane and hug him. Then I see him descending into his body and I descend too and ground myself in peace and joy. I feel good and at peace. I still have 2 more programs to work on related to him. I need to retest them first to see if they are still valid.

I still can't sleep and I choose to work on the program, namely "I'm suffocating". I use the term, especially related to money and it reminds me of those moments in kindergarten when I was forced to sit with my head under the sheet at lunch because I couldn't sleep. I can't see myself in the ball of light at all. I feel like I have hedgehogs made of tin foil around me, not heavy, just ugly, gray, gloomy, I can't see the light and the ball of light no matter how hard I try to concentrate and resume the meditation. I still rise to the seventh plane, without the globe but only with the ugly wings and ask to replace the program with "I breathe freely", "I am free" and "I am safe".

I also download the feeling "I know how it feels to breathe freely". Then, at the "Show me" part, I see myself with the same wings, but this time very beautiful, of light. I understand that something has worked...

February 21, 2023 - I Work on My Purpose in Life

 A few days ago I identified the belief that I am afraid of my purpose in life. Possibly, but it would be useful to know what it is.

I use muscle testing to identify among the activities I am doing now - books, workbooks, Facebook groups, Facebook pages, blogs - that are part of my purpose. I understand that my purpose is related to sharing with people my accumulated and tested knowledge (I really like to read and learn and then apply useful information in my life). Not to heal but to teach others to help themselves.

I will come back to the topic. It is too complex to leave it like that. For now, this blog is part of my mission, so I'm writing ahead...

Also on February 21st, I decide to do my first Theta session with our son to cure the stuttering he has suffered from since he was 3 years old when he saw the movie Zootopia, he got really scared and started stuttering. A totally inappropriate movie for a 3-year-old, but that's it. He stutters a lot, especially when he wants to say a lot of things at once.

I identify the following programs with him:

I stutter because I'm scared

I stutter because of the movie Zootopia

I stutter because I'm trying to say too many things at once

I stutter to protect myself

I have something to gain from stuttering

I stutter because I'm scared of the police chief and the tiger in Zootopia

I found only one program to put in place with him:

I can speak fluently without stuttering.

We're not doing the session yet, maybe we'll find other programs to put in place. I've suggested others, but he didn't agree to them.

Update: February 25, stuttering still exists, but it's much rarer...

February 19, 2023 - Manifestation Meditation and Working Programs

 I formulate in the Theta state the command from the Basic DNA course manual to receive

- a 10 cm, 1650 Hz Tibetan bowl that I follow

- the Advanced theta course

- 8 books by David Hawkins

Manifestation in the Theta state increases by up to 90% success compared to 40% formulating desires out loud and up to 50% by using visualization.

We will see how quickly I achieve these things. I missed the advanced course from the same instructor because I receive the money to pay for it a week later. I signed up with another instructor for March 31. We will see if it materializes...

I work:

I am worthy of being loved NOT

I have debts to pay

I am slow in achieving what I want.

I have to fight evil.

February 19, 2023 - DNA Activation, Genetic Error Repair

 

I activate for myself using the command from the Basic DNA manual the chromosomes of youth and vitality and then in the second stage the other remaining chromosomes.

I received the warning that I might feel a state of weakness like with the flu or cold when the activation is performed. At the same time, I learn from the manual that the activation for me can also trigger the activation of loved ones who are around me normally/family.

Until February 24, the date I am writing this article, I had no symptoms. However, my husband has had half of his head swollen for 2 days due to the repair process of a tooth, with flu and cold-like conditions, with cold conditions and lack of appetite. He has had problems with his teeth before, but never such large swellings/edema. His condition is good, he will be completely OK in 1-2 days. German medicine helped me find out that he suffered a bone devaluation conflict and it is now in the repair phase. The conflict was at work. I wonder if his worse condition than usual was also influenced by my activation...maybe we will find out the answer one day...

Also this time I requested with the help of the specific command the healing of any genetic errors in my body.

When I asked the Creator to show me the result of the DNA session, I saw descending from the sky towards me and spinning above and around me a series of colored strings, I think of beads in the colors of the chakras, descending one by one.

February 15, 2023 - Depression, List of Faulty Materializations

 

I work:

I feel helpless

I'm afraid I'll be alone

I'm afraid of loneliness

The troubled state I'm in makes me make a list of all the things I've materialized in my life that are obviously like this because of blockages and preconceptions:

1. I don't earn as much as I want, I can't buy everything I want, when I want - here I have blockages with the cart, I'll leave it for later for now

2. I'm home alone for a long time - my husband often goes on trips, just like my grandfather did. I identify and work on the program "Men can earn money without leaving home". Coincidence or not, my husband's stomach is really swollen and I'm home almost all week, except for 3 hours in the city. It's not what I wanted, I hope I didn't "disorder" him, but since he has free will, I don't think I could influence him to that extent. He is with me at home...and he earns money from home too...although the result doesn't seem ideal to me

3. I am suffocated by the animals in the yard - we have 5 dogs and 9 cats. The cats are always at the door, meowing, climbing on the muddy windows, on the outdoor table that is full of mud, they do their business on the porch where we have stone on the floor and it is not closed with a door. I sometimes get depressed because of them. I want a clean, well-kept place, where it smells nice, the dirt accumulates everywhere. My husband started to make a door to the porch, but he had to go away again on business and only the assembled skeleton remained.

I work the programs:

I deserve to live in a clean, beautiful, well-kept, comfortable place where I feel good.

I deserve to have space for myself, a space where I feel good, where I can breathe freely.

The result: February 18, 2023 the door is ready, I can finally clean the porch. I admire the place with love and cook on the table that has been cleaned of mud and cat hair. I no longer feel suffocated. The porch door keeps them out for good.

4. The houses and the place where I live are ugly, unkempt

5. I am unkempt, dirty (we don't have a bathroom and running water and I miss the comfort and shower that I had in the city). It all comes from the fact that sometimes I am too tired to prepare my bathroom, although I have decent conditions for bathing. It just needs to be heated and the water brought. But when you are in a bad mood, everything goes to waste.

I think about why I am like this - because I consider that I don't deserve to make too much effort for myself. I have to work on my programs. Until then, a warm bath makes me feel better.

6. My body is ugly, deformed, saggy breasts, ugly, sparse, dry, shapeless hair

I am working on the programs on February 17:

I have beautiful, thick, healthy hair

I have a beautiful body

I have beautiful breasts

I have a flat and beautiful stomach

I am beautiful and deserve to be loved

Results - I am not physically beautiful yet, but at least I don't care so much anymore. I am OK with it. Probably, additional sessions or a deeper digging of the programs are required. The fact that I have extra kg may show the desire to protect myself from trauma. In the past, beautiful women were kidnapped and suffered. It is possible that I have some program at the genetic level. I will see later. Money is my priority...